Tuesday, August 05, 2008


The reality is I talked to BW MCD last night she gave me good pointers (my trucker tg diesel dyke frined) She gave me good advice per say. And some contacts in san Francisco after the dl-328 goes through in a few weeks. Last night after leaveing the alano club, the bitch that lynched me in the shower with the hate crime, told me she threw the bottle at me, and threatened me again.

Was talking to a few other ladies (not tg women) and she lynched them too for dressing in the bathroom, she scared them as much as she did me. She’s a drunk, drug addict and insane. Per say. The irony of it all.

Had a good meeting this morning, uh have a few things to do, laundry, mail, and a few other things. Yesterday I sent off my mail to TX dot for a few issues. In addition, took care of some affairs with the Harris County tax assessor’s office.

I talked to one of the trucking companies per say. I miss the adventure. I feel as if at crossroads and unsure what freeway to take. It’s odd, obscure and scary. I feel less and less connected to family, friends of the family, extended family. In addition, even people who care, I feel out of touch with san Francisco like I don’t fit in.

I am angry at my mother for using me in leaving my dad, I am angry at my father for drinking, spending time at the horse track, the y, and other affairs. I am deeply resentful of it.

I have some good options and going to take it, I feel and dislike largely the TG community as a whole, I don’t feel I fit in. I don’t ever fit in, hm.

And now on to gratitude
1.) I am grateful for being loved and loveable
2.) I am grateful that I can choose not to drink, and hurt people
3.) I am grateful that I am honest, loyal and always do the right thing
4.) I am grateful that I am in San Francisco
5.) I am grateful to have the ability to change and be accountable for my life.

Moving onward I moved on from the Mathew Wilson, issue. I will say even if I knew where he was for $25,000 to turn in someone whom left because of his issues with sexuality would be wrong, the families use of the BBS and “locking” the posts even of the hint of the fact he could be a homosexual or mentally ill. Says it all.

Even if I could phycally take the family, and the police to where he is, I would not. We knew each other around various coffee shops in Houston, he used to have sex with my neighbor whom was a transsexual prostuitiue. I would never disclose his location.
Look at his photos for Christ sake, he is flaming gay. I never escorted I have more respect for it and my LDS and Mormon values disagree with that was well as transition, but that’s another story for another part.
I knew he is smarter than you and can outsmart the police. I know I am a smart person too. He was really nice and kind, and well is a good person. And I know in my heart he is hiding out someplace where you will never even think to look, and you need to take the heat off him and leave him alone.

In further details, I also took care of something else. I have therapy later this week, I might discuss the matter. I also have nothing more to say to the family or the police per say at this time. And might even close my board account. Especially given the censorship they are putting on it. In fact it would not surprise me if Matt Had an account on there, and watches this happen.

Further more I discovered more about life and the meaning of it. Well I have a very busy day today. I had more spicy soup this morning again. I also had coffee. And continue to grow, speaking of which the other ladies and I talked about nasty folks in this city.

I have a few errands to perform today and much to achive to meet my goals for the week and recently. I also need to copy and print a few more documents.
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