Freedom from bnondage, of self and progress not prefection

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Slept ok, last night. Went to The Emergency room, at San Francisco General Hospital last night due to more dizziness, cramps, and fatigue. Its odd. It might be also transition related, I have had the hiccuips also as well. I feel better this morning, I also feel some of the issues may be my body adjusting to changes.

I left the emergency room, in disgust. My blood pressure and salt levels feel a bit up to normal.

The also further more, my back started hurting, and I have had another health issue, a early bedtime, water, and rest today is on my own personal adgenda. I lost it, I need to stop pretending to friends, people in the program that life is ok, and manageable. I also should reach out to new-comers more, do my step work, and call sober people.

I think the reason, which is part of the problem I think to much, is I don’t want to let go, and get of the crazy bus. The MSPD is helping somewhat. I started running a bit, and went hiking part of yesterday. That’s one of the great things about San Francisco is the exercise opportunities.

E-mail drama
I also thought while browsing craigslist I found an interesting post with some search criteria, to someone I used to be friends with and close to, but lied to me, and also she sent me a reply
You are totally psycho, dude! And by the way, at least I'm not cowering and hiding myself away from the whole world, not dating, just because I've been hurt in my past relationships! At least I don't live ruled by my bitterness and residual pain. Whatever, asshole...leave me alone. I wish nothing to do with your kind!!




Here is my reply

At least be woman enough to use non-fake photos. I will be happy to leave you alone, personally I find Trans genders, and the GLBTQ community as a whole Disgusting with the exception of transgender men, queer women, and dykes, goths, punks, emo, and I just reinvented myself. and find 90% of transgender women I dislike and most dislike me. At least I don't scream at people, when our rights are infringed on, not every battle is worth fighting.

I would rather be alone and bitter my whole life than to be in a relationship that doesn't meet my utterly high standards. Pain is my pleasure, I let go of my pain, but you lied, and lie to people, those photos are not you. You should be woman enough to admit it.at least I don't sit in a closet all day, I am financially UN-co dependant, and take care of my own affairs, at least I am vegan, veg. at least I don't allow people like you to drain me as a vampire, we are so much alike its unreal, and we drive each other crazy, you just cant see it.


and Just for not dating, I have love interests in the East Bay. at least I'm not so chickenshit about Oakland, or Berkeley. At least I desire a good life, I am aware of my defects of ch rater, and I am working on them, at least I am.

"whatever, asshole...leave me alone. I wish nothing to do with your kind!!" at least I am sure in my sexual orientation and what I want out of life, I’d rather be strange and a asshole, and bitch, which I am very good at being, than to be co-dependant living in a closet in the hood'

The reason I reply ed, was due to my disgust and proof of you lying using other peoples photos. Have a good life, I wish nothing to do to you either, leave me alone as well. I have a life out site being TG and know what I am, and don't base my life in GLBQ issues, Mostly LQT issues. I also have a life in AA, and also in my church, and a few hobbits and trade groups. at least I am starting my life over and don't sleep till 10 or 11 everyday. and stat up till 3 playing play station games, and I know who I am.



Gratitude List
1.) Grateful of the weather ( I like the cold)
2.) Grateful for having a wonderful therapist and doctor
3.) Grateful I know who I am and what I want
4.) Grateful for knowing that I need to work my steps, call people, and work on gratitude
5.) Grateful for knowing I don’t need to bitch everyone out my life




This week I have an appointment at the doctor up near Piedmont, I also have a few other things to do this week, mail, documents, DMV and other issues. I also have to compose a few other documents. I am going to run a few other things given the sentsive nature of affairs and other matters.


I talked to DLG/PMG they left New Orleans for Abita Springs, and did not go to AL, for pats sake. I also e-mailed MLS . BP and MS are well in Houston watching the storm.








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Friday, August 29, 2008

Slept really good, had a massage yesterday helped my back and neck, have laundry to do today. I also might be flying into New Orleans International from Oakland international to take care of some affairs and also staying in Houston, Texas.

I have some things to take care of some affairs here, as well. Clean some dirty chapters, I also have big, big plans for myself, and my future. I lost something, major. I need to get something back in myself. Something is missing. And I also myself may become missing. I feel as if I have no meaning, I have no purpose.

I lost and hurt someone whom cared, about me. I also have trouble, given I feel I have less and less to share with. I called the SFPD Inspector Aaron Pera, about the theft I witnessed, and also might have to go testify for the diner dash / assault/ theft.

Hate and anger is what I breed, and the fire of what I burned for so long. I let it go to some god of my own understanding. I lost something within myself, perhaps I feel exceield, within my own self and sprit. I honestly miss Houston drastically so, I even which I could live there, I would go home to where I came out.

But I feel I have no community, no support, I didn’t really fit in with California, I don’t really feel folks understand me, and also the folks who try, I don’t like do to my utterly high standards. I miss the southern hospitality of sorts.
I really wish I could share my big plans, and ideals, but others would not be so understanding. I don’t have any plans any longer of going after my resentments, my plans are mostly political, and problem will result in not very good concqucnes just for myself.



The list
1.) Laundry
2.) Homework / work
3.) Check Mail
4.) DMV & DPS mail documents /print visit dmv
5.) Rest / meeting


Gratitude
1.) Grateful for the weather cool again!
2.) Grateful for AA, and having a good foundation on sobriety and reality
3.) Grateful for being committed to starting over in life
4.) Grateful for being able to grow spiritually
5.) Grateful for being true to myself.


I have an resentment more recently building within my spirit. The building
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Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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Friday, August 29, 2008

Slept really good, had a massage yesterday helped my back and neck, have laundry to do today. I also might be flying into New Orleans International from Oakland international to take care of some affairs and also staying in Houston, Texas.

I have some things to take care of some affairs here, as well. Clean some dirty chapters, I also have big, big plans for myself, and my future. I lost something, major. I need to get something back in myself. Something is missing. And I also myself may become missing. I feel as if I have no meaning, I have no purpose.

I lost and hurt someone whom cared, about me. I also have trouble, given I feel I have less and less to share with. I called the SFPD Inspector Aaron Pera, about the theft I witnessed, and also might have to go testify for the diner dash / assault/ theft.

Hate and anger is what I breed, and the fire of what I burned for so long. I let it go to some god of my own understanding. I lost something within myself, perhaps I feel exceield, within my own self and sprit. I honestly miss Houston drastically so, I even which I could live there, I would go home to where I came out.

But I feel I have no community, no support, I didn’t really fit in with California, I don’t really feel folks understand me, and also the folks who try, I don’t like do to my utterly high standards. I miss the southern hospitality of sorts.
I really wish I could share my big plans, and ideals, but others would not be so understanding. I don’t have any plans any longer of going after my resentments, my plans are mostly political, and problem will result in not very good concqucnes just for myself.



The list
1.) Laundry
2.) Homework / work
3.) Check Mail
4.) DMV & DPS mail documents /print visit dmv
5.) Rest / meeting


Gratitude
1.) Grateful for the weather cool again!
2.) Grateful for AA, and having a good foundation on sobriety and reality
3.) Grateful for being committed to starting over in life
4.) Grateful for being able to grow spiritually
5.) Grateful for being true to myself.


I have an resentment more recently building within my spirit. The building
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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Yesterday was insane, witnessed a theft and robbery had to call the police for a shopkeeper in the morning, had some guy be a jerk that was toasted drunk was propsiting me for sex. Which I delcined

another crackhead called me a “fucking queer faggy lesbian dyke” which amused me because he lashed out ebcuase I would not give him my edition of the San Franciso Chronicle , I suppose it’s the “Look” I present and what I go for.
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I had a doctors appointment with a shink yesterday, he felt I was ok, but per my docot woorying about mY HRT and stree, I tried something. Furthermore, than I zoked out while waiting for the doctor some drunk lady called me a cocksucking faggot, who she would fuck up who needs to grow some balls.

Another person asked me holy shit you are a girl, another persn asked me drunkly are you a girl or a guy, I country girl will surive in the big city. 

Furthermore, than I rested, hung out a bit with some sober aqwuainces called folks. Went to a meeting.
Than last night something failed and I was inconvinaced. Furthermore, I also had the experance of being again around two shootings, so in addition I had a lot of contact with SFPD yesterday
SFPD which they were busting ass trying to find the shooter. Shakeing down gang bangers, suspcial people lottering, looking for drugs and information.

Talked to a friend in the program about how a lot of people in San Francisco sit around all day, and we need to give them a boat 500 miles out with two oars and give them motivation for live and surivail. Its how I got sober, the city and county of san Francisco needs to reform public policy as does the state of califonia.

I’ve never in my life seen so many individuals whom want people to feel sorry for them. People need discipline, mayor Gavin Nusume has some of the right principals just applies it improperly, SFPD the DA and DHH and health department need to focus on individuals whom are trouble makers.

Needle exchange and harm reduction is tax paper subsided drug use and abuse and very wasteful. Needles are a major public health and safety hazard for children, citizens, Law enforcing, officers, peace officers, Fire and EMT workers.

Its ridiculous helping people whom don’t want any self-accoutbblaity and pride and to help themselves, some of the so called sobriety is weak because the health, public and city and county of san Francisco wastes taxpayer money on subsdiacxiend individuals whom need to be incarasrded, instuitinalised, or other issues.

We also at taxpayer expense harbor fugitives from justice, individuals whom are from the suburbs and out of state come here to deal drugs, sell guns, and also commit crimes, and even extortion on san Francisco most unfortitonate.

Gratitude List
1.) Grateful of being able to handed emergencies and fear positively.
2.) Grateful of being in control and responcabilie as a sober adult.
3.) grateful of being honest with my doctor & therapist
4.) grateful of making progress of being able to move on from prior resentments toward a person whom genuinely tried to help me
5.) Grateful to be my true self.






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Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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Francisco most unfortitonate.

Gratitude List
1.) Grateful of being able to handed emergencies and fear positively.
2.) Grateful of being in control and responcabilie as a sober adult.
3.) grateful of being honest with my doctor & therapist
4.) grateful of making progress of being able to move on from prior resentments toward a person whom genuinely tried to help me
5.) Grateful to be my true self.
--
Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

The reality of my life, this morning had some excitement in a diner, some speed freak went nuts and crazy, and tried to do a diner dash, and four employees had to restrain him Had to call the police for the employees, was a bit shaken up might have to go to court to testify as a witness.

I also am somewhat good, with my life

Gratitude list
1.) Grateful that was not me tearing up the diner
2.) Grateful that I was able to face my fears
3.) Grateful that I am sober today and as of 7-13-2007 continuous sobriety
4.) Grateful that I have the tools to cope with my program
5.) Grateful for having folks who care about me and see the good in myself



Slept good and ate well this morning the doctor took some suggestions for myself and continue to grow and prosper. And hurricane Gustav worries me dearly given my pickup trucks proximity, I have my forms and will take my California driving test and forms very soon, the thought of loosening my 4x4 scares me.

But maybe everything happens for a reason, the worry about having to travel to Louisiana and go back though Houston to San Francisco in my 4x4 does worry me a lot, the fear and fear of the unknown, but I will leave the powers of that to my own personal Jesus Christ.

Slept very well, awoke this morning g had a lady be nasty to me a patient at the doctor’s office.

Not much more to compose lately my life has been a bit burning, have a few positional casual coffee dates this weekend, step work, and the possibly of having to travel to New Orleans at very short notice.

Have the prey later this week, have a few other things to do, also have an appointment with Clair fairly next week.
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Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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Monday, August 25, 2008.

I thought I would clarity more on myself, what I did this morning was very noble, and a very good deed, which I don’t need to brag about, some people were shocked. I also do not want nor expect anything in return, it will cause me some manageable hardship, but no good deed goes un-noticed or punished maybe my higher power and personal Jesus will discover that.

Furthermore, I understand why I have such anger directed at my resentment CW in Houston, I resent her so much, because she is so happy, she doesn’t have to buy her happiness, she is kind, loving, and nice to others, she was nice or tried to be to me, when I was very nasty and did everything I could to try and piss her off.

Misery loves company, I’m afraid, she (CW) has something I want, something I fear I’ll never achieve. I wish I could face my fear, I left Houston because of the guilt, shame, and not wanting to admit defeat and be powerless, and possibly having to face her again. I relapsed around pride 2007 in Houston; I made it through pride sober, and got drunk after pride on Monday, that just fucking sucks I was only out for a night or two... Not because of her, but because of fear.

The answer to my problems, is not booze, wine, or vodka, jello shots, or screwdrivers, or an occasional shot of whisky, or draft beer, its understanding whom I am, what I do wrong, and what I learn and grow. Failure is not an option for me, I like power, control and to be overly dominating in my personal, work and aspects of my life.

That’s a blessing and a curse, I need more fun, and charitable time, I need my optimism, groove, and smiles. I need miles of road on a motorcycle, truck, or just at peace at home, I need more of whom I am.
In further enlighten I also discover my charity, kind, and individuals on the west coast are not as hospitable as us southern, and Texans. It’s odd and obscure tolerant, and liberal but bitchy. I just want to find myself, I want to be myself, I also know what I want and am working toward it. I miss the lone star state, but alas I ruined my chances there so to speak on various bar stools.
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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
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Monday, August 25, 2008

Slept good last night, the reality is, I continue to grow and prosper, for myself. Did a good deed this morning, and also my revised social security card, came in so soon, the California DMV awaits me with the new document and DL-328.

I have a busy day, and with my good deed being of service, have even more work, but did it because I am a kind good loving person with gratitude and helping others allows me to be of service. Have to run to the dmv, sent e-mails.

Have a busy evening and somewhat alas, stressful. I also want and enjoy helping others. I am kind caring, I also learned something about my selfish self about service, I am very selfish, rude and controlling at times, with my reaction to my joy and Scarface, but it is good to do something kind for someone else and not expect or want anything in return.
I am having some of my letters published that I also sent to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and for prop 8. In addition, for the viewpoints of current, former, and members of the LDS & Mormon Church.
I am out proud and I know many that are symptichic to our cause but remain silent, and some closeted individuals some whom are married with children, whom have gay lovers, or lesbian lovers on the side. I also know some lost hopeless causes in various YSA wards, as well.

I also took care of some finance, and civil affairs, did another flyer for a group, and also a promotional for profit event did some work. I sent a few letters of to Houston, New Orleans, Baton Rouge, Austin, Dallas for some affairs to take care of in my past.

Doing laundry today. Moreover, exchanging an item to the store for a different one. Picking up piscriptions at the local drug store, I also have some homework to do for a few pet projects, for work, school, and personal and clients.

Gratitude list.
1.) I am grateful for having the foresight of my defects of my personality.
2.) I am grateful for having the understanding of my body’s needs
3.) I am grateful for having the understanding of my spirituality
4.) I am grateful to have the ability to be of service & be kind to others with random acts of giving
5.) I am grateful to be able to remain focused and on track



The list to-do
1.) Make arrangements for matters I gave out of gratitude
2.) Make arrangements to take care of business
3.) Do Laundry
4.) Pick up meds / exchange item
5.) Program / meeting
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Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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Sunday, August 24, 2008


Slept ok last night had a pissed off morning, I also had other affairs to take care of, I rested well. I went to the noon meeting at18th and Castro streets in the bank of America building today. te ok, Took care of a few other matters.

Was in the Alano Club and saw an individual smash a window on a nice dark blue Audi wagon. With his jacket and run off with a backpack to whom I was pleading not to yell at them, to call the police, about B&E in progress and give a good description.

I also was a bit angry and spoke about how if I was behind the coffee bar working I would probably close the café call the police and then go make a citizen’s arrest and if necessary use force to detain the subjects. Maybe I still am a bit of a wild one.

I shared a bit, did some more 4th step work. This weekend I need some time alone I have anger, fear and just confusion over christen coming here, I still find trouble finding myself. I do not feel like I even love myself, people have given up on me, perhaps I gave up on myself.

My defects of charter, which I am working hard on, struggle and hurt. I hurt and am so sick of hurting it’s not funny, I wrote a few polictal acvitsm letters for PROP 8 and the LDS Church.


Grattuide

1.) To have people that love me
2.) To be sober
3.) To have clean clothes, good appearance and health
4.) To be able to be honest
5.) TO be able to focus.
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Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
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(713) 578-0016
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints-
Bishop Or Branch President
San Francisco YSA Ward
1601 22nd ave San Francisco, CA 94142



Subject: prop 8 from a (prior) member whom was NOT ex-commutated

Dear Bishopric of San Francisco,

My (Prior) Name was McInnis Lee Gaetjens; I was born on January 18th 1981 to Kathryn McInnis Gay and Martin Clark Gaetjens, to good parents. My father in my youth started binge drinking and became an alcoholic. My parents split my mother went back to her hometown of New Orleans, LA. My father was originally from New York City. My Parents moved here in the late 1960s/ early 1970s.

I was a convert to the church in Harvey, LA at the west bank Its ward, under the bishopric and later branch president of John Friday whom served there for a years and later resigned due to being displaced by his job with hurricane Katrina.

I was semi-active in the New Orleans YSA ward, the the Brays Bayou YSA Yard in Houston, Texas. I feel away from the church in Louisiana long before Katrina. I do believe in the church, but my Transsexual /Gender Identity and sexual orientation, caused me much comfort, with relocating to Houston, Texas for my job after Katrina. For a while, I was with the Sam Houston YSA Ward, under Bishop Craig Petty.

I started binge drinking around Christmas 2005, and drank until 7-13-2007 off and on, struggling with my issues, I am writing this letter to this disgust and questionable legal status of the church as a 501©3 non-profit medaling in police rallying and activism.

I also can tell you from personal experience in cities I have vested many people don’t speak up, about the pain, I drank because I was afraid, I was abused at my job in Houston, I was abused in my apartment, I had my home violated, and was blackmailed and extorted due to the state of Texas, my drinking and self-distortive behavior. It is likely I will never recive justice for my hate crime and sexual assault by co-workers. I could not turn to the church for help, however I do know many closeted members even some married and on bishoprics, high councils, and other callings.

The point is the church teaches that we are supposed to be kind and loving, and respectful of individually, many of us commit suicide, adultery or drink or fall into other vices. I think the church should change just as it did with African Americans and the priesthood in 1978.

The church widespread discirmaties in a state, and sponsors dicirmation for voters and individuals freedoms and civil liberties . The local leadership and high counsel and headquarters in salt lake city should allow us equal privileges and rights


I would like to sit down and discuss this matter with you


I can be reached at

(415) 678-0859
Leigh McInnis Gaetjens is my current legal name
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
LEEMCG @ LEEMCG .COM
WWW. LEEMCG.COM(blog/photos/art/webpage)


For the most Part, I still do believe in the church but why should I worship where I am actively persecuted against, and I do follow the principles and teaching of the church, with the exception of some, which discriminate and are old and dated to GLBTQ members.

The reason I became sober at Lambda Center in Houston Texas was due to having a vision, similar to Joseph smith, I was in an auto accident, and was Tazered, beaten, and handcuffed and lost 3 hours of my life in cardaric arrest, heart attacks and blackouts in Jan 2007 ,

Furthermore, band as a direct result to my actions served sometime in The Harris County Jail Saw my (dead) mother, relative and also was told I was loved, and still feel my heavenly father, and know he loves me for the real “me”.

it angers me that I am unwelcome to worship in a church whom actively discriminates against Transsexual-women, and I left, I would love to rejoin, but why rejoin if I am unwelcome.

would love to come back, but I am unwelcome there obviously so for the moment and appears the forgeable future.
I would Like to discuss matters with you via telephone, email and face to face.




Your sister in Christ and Sobriety,


Leigh “LEE” McInnis Gaetjens
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PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Slept good last night awoke early, took MUNI out, and headed to a meeting a bit later. Have a bit more on my addenda this morning. Awoke early this morning, feel better rested than last night, maybe I was upset yesterday about the multisided of bad news, were confused on BART AND TOOK the wrong AC Transit and Merry Go Round, and MUNI and had to shuffle some appointments.

Maybe I try too hard, I have been told that many times. It’s a defect of mine, I struggle to find place is the GLBTQ community, I know whom I am, I also can be arrogant, miss goody too shoes, stuck up, bitch, and also very strive for indpdeiance, striating, freedom, liberty and justice for all.

Moreover I admit I don’t indentify other than common bond with most transgender communities or find, my whole Life I’ve been odd, either square, gay, gender queer, Mormon, My LDS mormon phase is coming to an end, ive moved on with my life, they are fine individuals and long term I would not mind living, working or visiting salt lake city as a tourist, but also have dreams of miles of pavement with a pickupruck camper and a motorcycle.

Maybe I’m an outlaw in the GLBTQ community as a whole, I am so Utley picky and too good for myself and others around me. Maybe I just want to be left alone in solitude given though I am an amazing person and true individual and in pedant who plays by her own rules.

Gratitude Real Life experience and confessionals
I saw a guy last night whom was so plastered drunk, whom also ironically strongly resembled not Michal Richards but Kenney Cramer whom the charter off Seinfeld was based. Near the corner of 8th and mission, he walked into a brick wall of the doorway of the PG&E substation than hit is his head, on a fire department standpipe than a light pole and parking meter, than staggerly jaywalked, and made his way home to a side street and hit his head on the gate. He was so drunk the cops would have arrested him for his safety. I hope he is ok, and given I had this Esperance one.

Gratitude List.
1.) Grateful to not have been the massively drunk guy I saw last night that walked into a brick wall
2.) Grateful of the wonderful San Francisco weather.
3.) Grateful for being able to work the steps and have sobriety
4.) Grateful of being able to calmly talk about things, and be honest.
5.) Grateful to be able to be able to have gratitude and optimism.


The List today
1.) Meeting step work, call people
2.) Drop off documents, check PMB & Po box
3.) Finish home work in Excel, word and Publisher
4.) Do something fun
5.) Be nice, and happy and have gratitude

Furthermore, I shall share a few confessionals I have.
1.) On a gender queer phase as a messenger , in the Houston Galleria Office tower shortly before informs senators get caught in rest-room sting operations, I had a similar unknown experience, in the galleria office tower complex but I rejected and didn’t even know about foot tapping
2.) On a drunken excursion to New Orleans, I got hit on, got wasted at the whirling dervish left with the band, and then they were a little upset
3.) On another drinking occasion I can contest that the river oaks right wing republicans and even some members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and the so called Mormons / LDS are the freakiest most sexuality repressed in Harris county, and big perverts in Houston.
4.) On Another occasion I had sex inside the post oak club with someone whom we would not normal mix who we relapsed with
5.) On another occasion I had sex inside the delta club with someone whom we would not normally mix, whom we relapsed with




Oh I Might call becca perry today as well.
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Friday, August 22, 2008

The reality of what I want and know whom I AM as an individual and my continueing to enlighten myself, more and learn more about who I am as an individual and grow, live long and prosper

Did grattuide list, slept well, did some step work, going to bed early burned out busy day in the east bay dinner and off to bed early.

Not much to say today, Caio.
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Thursday, August 21, 2008


I received a call today from someone in my east bay support group, They asked me not to come friday, the past few weeks I have been a bit overly emotional and some folks know with my honesty my past history in Houston. I am not going to repeat past transgressions.

They also didn’t ban, me the economy is bad right now, even in san Francisco. I miht have to make further scrafices, in my life, and even future. IT hurts dearly having to make difficult and hard choices.

I also talked to someone, and I might be able to come back, I haven’t crossed the line. And won’t but at least I’m fair, balanced and honest.

I draw the line at my past, I am ashamed of what I did, I am making living amends by leavening, I miss my therapist as well I miss Melanie Morrison a lot. I miss Texas BBQ, vegan food, ecclica, Taco trucks, stuck in traffic.

I feel more and more alone, I feel lost, I feel hurt. I also feel the culture shock of California and san Francisco. I also don’t like to admit it but I’m scared.

My father did recently disown me, I also know Christen My biggest resentment will be here, I also am distrustful as to why she really may be here, she might be her, to try to emanate me, or she might be for business with her non-profit, or she might offer me to come home>

I don’t know how I would react, I know how I would not react given if and when we meet, I am planning on keeping a lower profile in the next few weeks to months and possibly leavening town or the state for a while just to avoid christen.

I generally have distrust for GLBT and Transgender communities and individuals a s whole, I don’t distrust christen, but given our bad blood, past history and the fact last time I drank because I saw her and she extended her hand.

They (support group) are going to discuss it, I did not do anything wrong in genal Im peaceful and settled down from my wild west days.


The truth be told, I also think she might have alter motives for something here even if to offer me things. I don’t feel welcome here, I will have 14 months sober, I miss Texas a lot. Also fear she might double-cross me either with HPD or Phyllis or something else if she even bothers to attempt to locate me.

I don’t have the answers, the story of the 15 year transgender kid, saddens me parts of my youth and foster care bothers me. I miss my family; I feel less and less conncted and do not think I have a future in Harvey, Louisiana or even with my father here in the San Francisco Bay Area.

I don’t feel I connect much, I grow tired of despite ordinances, silent discretion from private establishments, public agencies. I also grow tied of looking the other way at hate. And understanding its not right fighting every battle.

I am glad she gore what she wanted, and I know she does care she is an amazing person. I also know she might feel a bit resentful of me, But I do not trust her. I did feel portrayed also felt HACS just let go of me. Maybe she is coming for vacation, maybe to reach out to me. I know I won’t return to Texas with-out legal assurances of refractions, I’d rather go to jail in caluiofnria where I have a better chance of be treated better and I would not be relapsed to an area near her.

It’s not the concqucnes I fear, it’s the polical and rights I want. I don’t even know what I want but I know I want stability, a life, and a fair and evil chance, I also know for my political views and given I am a bit of a radical in the GLBT community whether in New Orleans, Houston Dallas, Austin, San Francisco, Los Angeles, Berkeley, Oakland, New York City or Vancouver

I stand out, I am an individual not some textbook person, at least I have bite. At least I’m a smart individual who is not a stereotype.



I have more and other addenda as well. I have other issues I am working on and a few other factors. Had a good therapy see ion today, I also had few other things.
While its true being a busy body, being able to comp rend a few other launges broken, and also read lips, and good hearing, and street smarts. Moreover, being able to social engender be minulipive, aggrieve assertive and my photographic memory and good deduction skills.

I could in theory avoid christen, and others. And I will find out more about her trip I also was told someone else might be coming as well. I could keep low for awhile. Im smarter than she is. The same way Mathew Wilson evades discovery, I am highly inelegant individual.







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Thursday, August 21, 2008

Slept good last night, had a dream of freightliners, and also my weird sickness of people in lambda center drinking in a bar, it doesn’t scare me it’s just my sickness, of the beer in the oasis, because I’ve got friends in the program in low places. 

Furthermore awake early 12:00 PST = 2:am cost (closing time) I got up about 3am, showered and bathed, cracked my back, bones, and other factors for my physically fitness, have another meeting with Clair fairly, and also the meeting this morning was really good to any who missed it

The topics of
1.) Co-dependancy
2.) Relatshinhships
3.) Family
4.) Love
5.) Loss
6.) Insanity
7.) Spirituality
8.) Work and employment and school
9.) Living alone
10.) In addition, respecting yours and others boundaries.


Went to the morning meeting again at the alano club, at 7am, tomorrow I might go to my old stomping grounds on church street. See a old friend in the program.

Today’s Gratitude List

1.) Grateful of the weather, fog and low cloud elevation
2.) Grateful to have good resources available to me
3.) Grateful to have decent non-discrimination practices
4.) Grateful to be recovered, and free from my shortcomings and defects of charter
5.) Grateful to be able to express my feelings and desires.


I also further more composed documents which elevate more of whom I am as an individual and my interpersonal spirituality and what I want out of life.


Called 3 SOBER individuals today, did 15 minutes of grattuide and did my homework, have therpey today, amonsgty other issues. Going to my support meeting, talked to my grandmother as well.

Sent some messages out on a transgender support group I belong to on-line and offline. I also worked more on my intranet, and other apps, and future San Francisco Interactive on-line and offline outreach project I have in the works and some of my muni issues

Add a post here from the form with information removed to protect ananominity.

Great Thanks for the invite to the group.

I am sorry I upset some people, I also wanted to share, my feelings, lately Ive just needed a hug, its a new concept of mine to self-express my feelings. I didn't mean to make anyone uncomfortable, I also just have been lonely and scared, given the next step and what I am going through right now.

I just need some love and support and hugs, Its sometimes difficult for me to ask for help, or express myself verbally, or ask for help, beyond my toughness, is caring and loveliness, and wanting to help others, and sometimes be loved and hugged.






I had some suggestions to the group, most groups I have attended or enjoyed are transsexual support groups. have well more close membership requirements and are more heavily formally moderated like a 12-step meeting, maybe we should have a group business meeting to adjust the format or change it.

Some good groups I have attended prior are

Gulf Gender Alliance (New Orleans, LA)
Trans genders helping Trans genders Anonymous (Houston Texas)

I had my DL328 I am eagerly awaiting my new social security card. I also have an electro appointment I would strongly recommend this place, and as far as for those who can afford it I can recommend a good plastic surgeon in Houston as well who has been working on us for 25 Years


My name change and gender and name change with social security is official. I get to take my writ en California driving test very soon! I'm also working on getting a CDL and to join the fun of MUNI and get to fulfill my dreams of being a diesel dyke.


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I also am working on a BBS system on my website powered by vbuillitan, which I might host at tgsfo.com another of my domains which I plan to turn into an outreach similar to Transhouston.com


http://www.avenue-electrolysis.com/ is where I have been going check it out in Oakland, I have an appointment tomorrow morning

The plastic surgeon and electrolysed I recommend www.yarshmd.com is dr yarsh http://www.yarishmd.com/
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008


Slept good woke up on time alas a bit late, had a successful doctor’s appointment, and browsed in on the support group. Forgot to mention about someone to the group, was successful in my paperwork end ours, am going to the DMV soon.

Sent e-mail to the folks, talked to my grandmother a bit yesterday. Spoke to RAP, attempted to Converse with CE might visit around the holidays CE and the family. Spoke to NAB, and ran into someone else from my Latter Day Saint Past as well.

Furthermore, I added more info to my site, edited code, cleaned up some unsay code as well. Experimented with a new package. I called my sponsor, wrote my 4th step, I also called 3 people, and my back hurts today.

I have to pick up documents, than go visit a friend, and drop some items off, laundry tomorrow, mediation ad dearly bedtime might be in order today. Called Ray Hill this morning and just said hi, he’s someone I also look up to and respect and would miss dearly.


The further discovery of myself, and where I want to go and whom I desire to become more in life and where I want to go in the past, present and into the future, I want more of whom I am as an inddivdiaul and to continue to grow into interpersonal enlighten, I spoke to someone whom has been attending events and teachings at the San Francisco Zen Center I make a mental but not insane note to put it on my long list of “to-do”.

Lost 4 lbs at the doctor, my diet, and change in bad habits is working, and I am headed down to my goal, I want to achieve again. I want to just loose another 26-46 lbs and Ill be happy. I also added a few liens discussed some stress, burn out, and my physical and mental issues worrying about burnout.

My doctor told me given my intelligence, and good har dowkr I am hanging there, I have another person in a 12-step proram whom has told me, they are amazed I still am sober with my obvious present stress.


Meeting with Clair fairly today, I also am meeting with a few other individuals. And have a few other tasks to use my time and resocures wisely.



Anyway Life is good, god is good and my own personal 12-step jesus moves onward.
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Talked to my grandmother today, about my grandfather. I also told her about my resentments and I might visit around the holidays I have not been home seince the spring of 2005. Well I have been home but didn’t visit family, I drank in varios bars and establishments in New Orleans, Baton Rouge, Houston, Dallas, Austin, San Francisco, Los Angeles, New York City, Miami, Portland, Seattle, Salt Lake City, Oakland, Berkeley, Chicago, Atlanta.

The other factor is I did more of my 4th step and want to get this shit over with. I want to work it over, I want to get my program in AA more seriously. I saw this young kid an axel rose look-a-like whom is under 21 whom I hope gets with it.


Spoke to TW today, about her custody battle, also spoke to DT as well, and about my trip back home maybe for the holidays, given my hate of flying, and control and dominating I might drive back for December to January 2009. Ring in the new year between New Orleans & Houston with my pickup truck and pick up my 18 month chip at LAMBDA Center and possibly visit the Houston TG Center if my higher power and faith and if I am even allowed there.

I found out the dickhead the weekend I was tossed from the country club, after breaking up with someone, moving, and getting “86ed” for a year from the marina dock. Was wrong.

Today someone was a bit mean to me, but others were nice at the metro pcs phone store, had my voice mail fixed. It seems to be working but lost messages, I also still have my at&t Treo 650 as well, the contract is up, still with the Houston area code.

I changed some code, and content on my site, and changed my face book layout a bit. I also worked on digitizing some documents with OCR and other facts into fellable PDF documents. For personal use and a client, I also cracked some weak 40-bit encryption on some PDF documents, how laughable at the low encryption, I mean can’t adobe systems take a hint?


I also added more photos on my site, did work on my 4th step, coded a few other things. Have a few things to print.

Presently ran into someone else from my Latter Day Saint past, blah. More on this later.

I’m out of here busy as a bee today.

Ciao, and toddles.
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Went to the 7am queer meeting at the San Francisco Alano Club where I continued my aa roots. I also was informed someone has gossiped about me in Lambda center and a few other meetings I attended in Houston. Some true some untrue.

I also wrote out more of my 4th step, and have been informed that My largest resentment and 4th step, and 8th step and 7th step, is coming to San Francisco, it for some obscure reason doesn’t scare me, but makes me uneasy. I need more meetings, and to get done with this bullshit.

For the first time in my life, I feel like my path is unwritten, if anything I have this weird feeling, I might have a chance to kiss and make up. Christen Is a wonderful person and one of the three sober people I called today told me, that and what I did wasn’t me it was the draft beer, wine, and vodka, and occasional whisky shots in various drinking establishments in Montrose, River Oaks, Midtown, Downtown, The High its and other parts Of Houston, Texas.

The shame and guilt I feel needs to be put in my god box, I hope and think she did things right, I don’t like the community or much here, christen is a wonderful person, I hope we are able to meet by choice, and keep our peace. Nevertheless, I am not going to disrespect our boundaries. I crossed the line, I accept she might not ever forgive me, but I hope she sees the good in me, I know others do.

I have seen hobble things here, in san Francisco, all I have is hope. I don’t know what I expect but I would sit down and talk to her, Hug her, and be honest. She is one person I do trust. In addition, I also admit I am jesious of her, she has something I want, and is someone even I look up to as a fellow sober individual in the program. I lashed out at her because I was angry and scared, and had fallen into a drunk like my SOB father who Lives In San Francisco, and given I was born in Oakland, parents lived in Berkeley.

My mother was from New Orleans my Dad from new York city, I am always hassled about my accent, given the east and west coast and southern Cajun accent. No matter where in the south I visit.

Last time I drank, I drank because I was afraid the fog was lifted and had drunk my self stupid and forgotten about AA. If we meet I would even ask her for help. But Im not going to cross the line, if she doesn’t want to admit it.

I have been praying more and doing other things, sent an email today, took care of other affairs and continued to do other matters. I wish and am homesick for Houston, but feel I do not have any support there, I would return there if I were welcome. But threes no point to going someplace where you feel unwelcome, people treat other badly. Its not the southern hospitality I am used to.


However, I’m not expecting any co-dependency or other issues.


Have a busy day today, my doc appointment and other things, I am very busy today and later. I have much to achive later and more and more. I should get my dl-328 soon as well. I have other things to work on. But am very busy. My revised social security card, with name and gender did not come in yet. I get my DMV DL-328 composed soon as well.

I hope I get a peaceful reunion, but its not spur of the moment. I also admit I could be scared more, I also am having more memories of blackouts while drinking. I also don’t think Im going to hop on a plane and fly back to Houston either. But I think I might do it one day, I miss Texas, threes tons of crap in Houston to do.
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August 18, 2008


Self observation & confessional


I find myself likeing to be bad and naughty, even if the result is undesirebale, the fact of being loud, proud and uncensored and doing things that piss people the fuck off, get my hot knowning its taboo.
Even when I drank, I liked to be around bad people, places and things through of the naught person and my dominatrix personality and leadership and urn for the open road of highway, my boss, my truck and my way. Make me hot, the fact of diesel dykes make me hot, blah.
I need to quit taking individuals hostage with my personality, and quit being a dominatrix and shut the fuck up and mind my own fucking business, like my Ruskie friend.

Just my two cents worth, I’m going to be good, and maybe change and be more self-policing and governing and doing more inner soul and social step work, and keeping my fucking trap shut!

The other factor is I can be more evil, behind closed doors and the world wide web, with my trap shut. I can do more damage shutting the fuck up. In further notice, I also know I m a kind amazing person whom people adore, just my defects of charter suck.
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Monday, August 18, 2008


Took care of business, had another bill come in, also dug into more of my past and long forgotten blackouts and continue to grow and be humble in sobriety, going to enjoy the silence, without dépêche mode and rework and tool my social, listening and program and shut the fuck up per say.

Re-worked some code on leemcg.com, also have a great observation on hate, gender, sexuality and discrimination. Which I shall share and observation as follows.

Observation today & yesterday in the city and county of San Francisco in the state of California.
Today
Today while picking up and dropping off some prescriptions , I also picked up a few hygienic items myself. While doing such two individuals were nasty to me, said escume me sir, than apologized when I didn’t look than the other hateful bigot, punched the other one for not speaking up than when leavening were unsure as to what the fuck I was and spend 15 minutes while waiting for main fighting amongst them sleeves, and also being non-reactive and not judgmental and enjoying the silence and chuckling in ignoring and amusement, I had a blast.

Another observation again in san Francisco last night.
Last Night around 6:30 pm at the inbounded sidewalk on the north bound side of market street near height and market, I observed a Texas truck with a duly noted Harris county EZ tag on the windshield go against traffic and get yelled at by two butch SFPD officer for being stupid Texans, and not being able to read on foot patrol. (got to love san Francisco finest)

My confessionals and open letter:

I used to boil with so much hate, racism, sexism, homo-phobia, trans-phobia. All of my life I felt I was wrong, I was discourged, I was hurt, I was laughed at. I also allowed my self-hate to allow my blood to boil. I had a spiritual experience, overcame these issues in the various drinking establishments of Houston, Texas ; New Orleans, LA ; Baton Rouge, LA ;San Francisco, CA ; Berkeley, CA ; Oakland, CA ; New York City, NY ; Los Angles, CA ; Portland, OR ; Seattle, WA amongst other unknowns my blackouts are lifting. In addition, much more is problem to be reviled.

I grew tired and continue to grow tired even in San Francisco individuals steorytpels over judgmental and telling me I cant do this because It wont be right being a woman, or trans woman, Im not a woman, Ive just reached a point where I just don’t give a fuck anymore, I don’t give a fuck what You say do or whatever, I just want to be left alone to my own devices, I have utterly high standards and either like you, lookup to you, idolize you, see you as a positive role model, hate you, don’t’ like you or tolerate you.


I know what I want, I don’t care what You think, I know what I am, and I will chive it at any costs, using legal, ethical and positive ways. I also can positively say I never knowing did any illegal drugs, though I was slipped a mucky once when drinking. I also never had sex for money, I never would despite invlfules I still do live up to some of my former LDS / Mormon utterly high standards.

Recently as well, I had an individual write REPENT on the document, I had a wire transfer come in for some code and hosting why the fuck don’t they use PayPal I don’t known anyway one of the former LDS missionaries again or others or someone from my lads background I ran into, keep in mind I met a lot of LDS folk. At least I’m not a closet case bishop, or stake president or high presdnaceywhom has homosexual or so called imago urges and repents, and goes to homosexual inversion there though god.

Diet today for my records

Begat and cream cheese, coffee
Fish with tartar sauce, rice, veggies, roll
2 lets water, peppermint
Hash browns with gravy, onions cheese, coffee, water

My health and hormone levels have been impoveing as well as my hydration issues, and been working on my fitness, I also have been poping my back and neck and working on my left hand and bad wrist.

Still awaiting my new revised social security card from the ssa, with new name and gender. And the new drivers lic, have to get those forms finished as well.
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Monday, August 18, 2008

Been busy today, with a few projects have much to blog about and some political viewpoints I will share more to come on this issue later. Caio.

Did grattuide list, called sponsor, did 4th step work,and going to have some fun today. Later.
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