Showing posts with label self image. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self image. Show all posts

Saturday, February 2, 2008


02/02/08



Yesterday was rough sort of, my sinus infection is coming back. I am however in good health and spirits, the election on super Tuesday is upcoming as is the super bowl. I also have laundry and possibly some shoe shopping to do. And maybe get a few more coats.


I had to run across town a bit last night, and had some temptation of the wrong sort, and passed some places and smelled the sweet smell of booze amongst club goers. I had to go to three places last night before I got rest, and wore myself out and also had two mess ups there as well and other issues to take care of.


I spent a bit of today with thoughts and pondering, praying and wondering whats right or wrong. But know my path is the right one even if scary and unsure as to who, what, when or why I am here, only to have a spiritual temperance with myself, my sponsor, and my own restless and sickness as a individual and physical ailments.


Zen is en route I thought I would share a few more photographs.


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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 66471
Houston, Texas 77266-6471
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)

Monday, October 29, 2007

my life and feelings

I also observed someone today, that is along the lines of myself, people look at my life and wonder what is so bad about it. I know and others do not, I know I must admit defeat but I do not. I have an appointment to tour a few plants out near baytown. I am doing ok and growing, and have an appointment with a legal matter in baytown.

I have an appointment later today, and other things in mind. I also have plans this week, and hope things fall into place, the holidays are up coming bah. Ill be alone, I barely made it through Halloween I wonder how thanksgiving and Christmas will fare. Id rather be alone and sober or die trying. Its not that people don't find me intrusting some do, I just brush them away. I don't want to hurt anyone else.
Lee McInnis Gaetjens (www.leemcg.com)
29 October 2007 @ 11:44 am
10/29/07

Today I am hurting, I hurt in spirt. I am like the matrix, I want out but dont want whats real, or not real anymore. Reality hurts. It really does, but I am a fighter. I cant deal with other peoples bullshit, just mine. I must not stick my nose where it is not wanted and continue into enlightenment.

I met someone more recently to whom I suspect is a bad influence, and I have seen around here and there. Blah the agony of a photographic memory, and being miss thing busy body and being honest and loyal.
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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 66471
Houston, Texas 77266-6471
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)