Caught up on sleep today, had not sleept for a few days. Bitched someone out that I had no reson to, Made a meeting today, dreamed a bit. Rested and recharged. Went shopping at kroger, sliped on some holliday glaze. Felt badly for the employee who left the spill unattended, wasnt hurt.
Im tough on the oustide, but soft on the inside sort of like a dragon, or so I think or am told. Went to lamba, left not to bitch out the new comer. Going to bring a suprise to a friend whom I was wrong in bitching at today. I didnt sleep much last night, canceled the therpey apointment this week.
The hollidays have me bitter, ba hum bug. I suffer, knowing I have to do something diffcult and dont want to be shall. Choices to be made, running, rideing, I am a dark angel, a life lost, bitterness and alone on roof tops.
Visted some friends last night and the few nights prior. Blah the hollidays bite alone. I have to face some fears, but must work on my panic and bitterness in my soul. Saw some pigs today fucking with someone, dont fuck with them and they leave me the fuck alone.
Im greatful today to have the tools I need to stay sober, even if Im bitter and nasty and a cold hearted bitch at times. I have someone I like whom doesnt know it, and I shall keep it inside, I must remain focused on myself and getting help, light and enlightment.
Just my two cents.
--Lee McInnis Gaetjens
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