I also learned today on the eve, of New Years Eve, More about myself life and fear of the unknown, the selfish self-centered lee, bitch, and lieing attention whore, narcissist will be left behind. I hurt trying to find or rediscover myself sober, I feel anger, poetry, at myself, others and factors of insanity and oppression, and self-destruction.

I also know its time to move, on let, go and fire up my pickup truck I also know I have to do a few more things, new truck battery before the trip, laundry, pack, court clothes and other affairs before the day of reckoning and discovery for myself and life, and being alive.

I also know 2000 miles of open road 4 states, and 1 to get out of, 2 to pass through, and 1 to enter, and also the 2^nd largest. I also learned more about myself, life and being loved, and will have spiritual experience now and in between and also till the trip and faith for a better life, love, and to be respected and not discriminated or treated like a 2^nd class person, and have better access to respect and services, you can have a community, activism but without services and awareness it sucks ass.

Anyway moving forward made progress today much much progress on the task at hand the next few days I have to clean house, take out garbage and get rid of items for the task at hand before I run out of town and run so far away, on the highway.

Have a drs apointment next week and much to do and to move on, and go west young woman to the area of my birth cut some ties and run away to a better life and tommorow.

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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 66471
Houston, Texas 77266-6471
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