I'm depressed, I spoke to MM about getting more detailed help, I want help and am willing to give more submission and be more humble about it. I grew more today in myself. The stress is massive, I don't resent others or much anymore even if I felt poterayed and insecure and lashed out. But Ive let go.

Its my program, I have a meeting to catch and to hit the road before road rage hits me, I must live long, and grow and prosper and not due to pray bullshit but grow into enlightenment, zen myself and the art of inner peace.

I have been sleeping better and being cool, calm and collected even if itzy a bit, to speak. I must grow the alternative is insanity and enlightenment, prayer alone is not enough, evolution and zen and improvement is more.

Windows VISTA has built in disk partationing even if its not totally ready for prime time, I soon want to when I have the time and foucs to boot VISTA, XP and Linux and Maybe BSD

I also wrote new code for my site, and a few personal, business and other letters and made further planning. I am thinking about Installing SUSE Professional on my laptop when I reformat.

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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 66471
Houston, Texas 77266-6471
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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