The truth is I hurt badly, I have some fuck that wont take a message to get the fuck lost. I hurt and grow tired of being lonely around the hollidays I am shopping again for a sponsor, 2 sponsors in allmost 5 months in and out, Its sucks blah.
Im selfish I followed my diet today, depression the hollidays I am not ready for. I want to let go be back where I once was, as I rebuild my life, talked to AAA texas some today to take care of some manners insurance and other DMV and DPS matters like is a bitch, paid the county tax man.
My day did not go as planned and I just am tired of being nagged and used and taken advange of. I am tried of being alone. I am tired of just want the pain, and suffering to end. I want what I had. And am scared to get there one day at a time. Fuck like is a bitch and so am I.
Sent a few cards out for x-mass. Found a new intresting buddist place I might start scopeing out and get involved with. Life rules. Sort of, just dont let drinking rule it. I have another casual informal date with this person whom keeps just not listening and pisses me the fuck off.
--Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 66471
Houston, Texas 77266-6471
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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