12/06/07

I have been having dreams, choices and pondering. I have some enlightment and discovery, and know what I must and need to do even though I have not done it. I have to face a fear and few things this week even though I dont need to closure if a option.

I dont like feeling the panic, cahos and disorder. I have a fuck of a lot of be greatful for but Im not. Fuck em its not a resentment but I need to move on to not much else. I have to let go, I have made the hint as to the answer to the problems. And I shall.

Anyway Reality is a bitch, and I dont like being bitter about it, or draging others into it. Now Ill go home and try and get some sleep tonight, the pain must be finished tommorow.

In other news, I baghandled some items recentrly. I dont like rideing around doing that, but you do what you must. Security in some spots of areas that I semi-retired from it amazes me how much life changes.

I hurt, bleed and suffer but Know what I must do, sleep, meetings, pray, ponder and medatitd to remove to bitterness from my heart.

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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
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