I have accepted the reality, my family will never understand or accept me. I have to let go and move on. I dont know where or when, I have decied for the moment houston is my home, but I left my heart in san fransico and it will be back where I was born before I am 30, I turn 27 in januray as a late capricorn (JAN 18^th) I understand I want to be out of texas before my 30^th birthday and roll in the new year or christamss or thanksgiveing at 29 in my birthplace with my dad (berkjely,ca) or my aunt who is lesbian (oakland, ca)

I also understand I may allways be alone, and I wont lower my standards to not be such, and anything and everything is expenable for my soberity, and even possession and I would elope from here to stay sane and sober if I had to.

I spend my christmass and thanksgiving alone this year and next and beyond. Afrad and sad, but alive. I let go and move on tommrow with my wonderful sposnor kathy and tami helping me let go. I might be ok but Might not Im alive and in good health even if not in the most secure of spirts, I have someone I like sort of and cleaned up at home today and have more to do later this week maybe after I go to the apointment tommorow and therepy tommorow. And mhmra tommmrow.

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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 66471
Houston, Texas 77266-6471
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
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