Friday, January 02, 2009

I have been self-reflecting and learning in Life, what I learned about humility, self-discovery, and myself. I learned that I never really had a childhood, my peer pressure, and irresponsible actions in Texas, and Louisiana, and acting out was being the rebel I never was.

My anger, resentment and feeling out of place, under-sexualized, as well as not being discovered my true spirit. I even have some of these actions In San Francisco. Perhaps I will not always be alone and so selfish, attention whorish, and self-centered, disrespectful of boundaries.

My life, and self-pity I find utterly disgusting along with the overly liberal San Francisco, while I agree with some of San Francisco’s Ultra Liberal Values, other topics and issues in California I find utterly disturbing, its amazing a place where many radical viewpoints are formed, both right wing and far left.

It also hurts to feel like I don’t connect or click with others, the community and American Life, I dream of something far away, in the country side someplace other than the Once Great United States of America, now the shame and laughing stock of the eastern world.

Moreover, I feel I discovered a feeling of emptiness, perhaps part of the void of whets missing, and letting go and allowing faith to take over is better for us all.

Maybe I will sort it out in 2009, when some of my debits to society and past transgressions and moving on in my new life on the ultra liberal left coast.
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