04/06/08

I AM getting some affairs in order for my reasoning and pourpose for the reason of starting over for my life, I know what I need to do for me, I know what is right and what I need to do, and why I need to do it, I love myself and life it self, but it runs down to a end.

Feeling empty she pulls on her soberity as her fate draws closer, if it doesnt imporve it ends than or never. I fight the urge to jump down and cry, trears of hurting others in the eye, full of resentmennt and bitterness and suffering I learn more about myself more and more drawing more into my flgith of enlightment and queer and own personal jesus.

I cock back the hammer of the desert eagle, and prepare to meet my match, the maker of death and reaper draws in, the tears of pain and forty-five caliber centerfuge bullets within, the drop of pain and falling to the end of the golden gate in sight, the death of her is not far away in sight.

I slash my brest left and right, and more and more and in the might night hour I want more to the end, the death not far from the end, I cry and night and want to awaken into life and pian the cry to enightlight for my soul. The right the best and more for myself. The right, for my soul the real for meal and the real.

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Lee McInnis Gaetjens
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