my life and feelings

I also observed someone today, that is along the lines of myself, people look at my life and wonder what is so bad about it. I know and others do not, I know I must admit defeat but I do not. I have an appointment to tour a few plants out near baytown. I am doing ok and growing, and have an appointment with a legal matter in baytown.

I have an appointment later today, and other things in mind. I also have plans this week, and hope things fall into place, the holidays are up coming bah. Ill be alone, I barely made it through Halloween I wonder how thanksgiving and Christmas will fare. Id rather be alone and sober or die trying. Its not that people don't find me intrusting some do, I just brush them away. I don't want to hurt anyone else.

Tags: feelings, houston, life, texas

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29 October 2007 @ 11:44 am

10/29/07

Today I am hurting, I hurt in spirt. I am like the matrix, I want out but dont want whats real, or not real anymore. Reality hurts. It really does, but I am a fighter. I cant deal with other peoples bullshit, just mine. I must not stick my nose where it is not wanted and continue into enlightenment.

I met someone more recently to whom I suspect is a bad influence, and I have seen around here and there. Blah the agony of a photographic memory, and being miss thing busy body and being honest and loyal.

Tags: enlightment, life, reality, sober, the matrix, zen

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