Monday, September 01, 2008

The reality of life, and myself discovery of myself. Continuing to grow. I had a awakening of gratitude this morning as follows, the reason my Anger, resenentment and shame builds and was lashed out at an Individual whom has 10+ years sober, is with and as a result of my own shame, of becoming what I resented and vowed to never join the ranks.


Furthermore, I discovered more about myself, and interpersonal enlighten, my pickup truck might be destroyed by gusto, possibly, amongst other issues. Which is going into faith in my higher power?

Gratitude list
1.) Grateful for being able to grow spirituality
2.) Grateful for being able to let go, and put my truck and hurricane gusty to my higher power
3.) Grateful to have a ok program
4.) Grateful to be clothed, fed, and sober
5.) Grateful to be realistic, and honest.


The list
A.) Laundry
B.) Bills
C.) Planning for tommmorow
D.) Rest, and taking care of myself
E.) Being more disciplined in myself.

Today went ok, had a good 7am meeting, also took care of other things like laundry. Have to shop for a backpack soon

Took care of a few other affairs, some finance affairs, have a huge busy and stressful day tomorrow, and much to achive today in prepration for it.
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