5/8/08

as of late I am under massive duress. But I am copeing, I met or have the potetinal to meet someone new though craigslist, I also had somone recently treat me bad with inporep pronouns

I am having more blackouts and memeory loss, I also talked to LR about things, I have dizzyness, blurred vision, loss of time, I dont eat much or sleep enough sometimes, But I pish myself very very hard, I know what I want out of life,

I spent all day in san francisco civil court http://www.transgenderlawcenter.org/formlinks.html

Ive been very busy today, some of the dmv paper work, the memory loss, and nightmares are worse than ever, last night I drove a ford escape though the hills of San Francisco, I dont like driving as much anymore.

I lost intrest, I feel as if I have nothing left lviing for, I talked about this.

I also just am lost, I admit I am chronicly depressed,. I botteld up two years worth of pain and hurting, I hurt all the time. The doc thinks my pain is spirtula rather than physcal, I want an MRI, I think something else is wrong, I am tired of hurting and feeling in so much emotial and phsycal pain, my life is scatter brained, I wish dad

I also have been working harder and harder and keep pushing myself forward, I just got worse news about my tax stuff, I am so fucking burned out

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