The reality of myself, and further gorwth today I took steps to take accountablity for my past, I take the steps to fight the future and the inevitbale death of myself. I feel dead now, happers but still lonely and insecure as fuck.
I dont want the simitten of the bottle for life, and I know who and what I want for me, Recovery or somewhat, I ran into another person of myspace, and facebook. I also found some da ja vu or something of that nature.
I feel more for myself, and lost in life more lately, for my soul. I guess I will figure it out, I am home for the most part or so it seams.
The family suituion is worse, all In want is my folks to accept me and treat me with respect even though at times, I want more respect, yet I am not taken seriously, all I want is my folks to accept me for who I am, all I want is justice, for what Happened to me, and Folks who could use funding, as I dont desrvie it for what I did.
I feel as if My life is meaning less and pointless, but hope is on the horozion, I might rent a car this weekend to take care of some affaris and scope out some subriubia and maybe go hikeing.
I have been sleeping ok, my health is a bit better, I dream often of far away places where the soberity rains in a oasis.
Today was quisi produstive I got progress with my student loans, though it could be in jepordey, and other factors. I also have to get tax paper work
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