Friday, February 29, 2008

Went to a meeting, I also have a new sponsor, and have a regular meeting my new sponsor suggested. I also left the bad housing suitution. and am going to work with my thrpsit on my co-dependency issues, social skills and being less attention whorish, I also am going to work on myself, loving myself and lairing to be happy.

I would like to keep in touch via, email. you did help me, I got off track with my co-dependency issues. my friend and I are still on good terms. I also am going to get back going to meetings daily. I went to the bank of America meeting on Monday. and my sponsor aerial who attends the marina dock, Monday womens meeting, who speaks highly of you.

I am sorry for draining, you and Know I have issues, I enjoyed working with you and would like to keep in touch, and am going to commit to start attending the marina dock meeting. and put myself, I liked the living situation but it was not healthy for my soberly, I have plans for a womens shelter tonight and I am taking care of myself, after 2 weeks of insanity, I need to listen more and I understand your choice and reasoning, I have even as young as I am helped and worked with and Had to let go of people I am working with. I have other issues I am dealing with and ariel can relate better, I think you are a wonderful person and sponsor, but I found a better fit. maybe at some time we can work together in the future, many years down the road.

I am going to get back to meetings daily, and I have a new "home group" that was suggested. My new sponsor is a Inter sexed person, who I have known ariel who goes to the Monday womens meeting at the marina dock. I think she knows you. I also left that bad suitution, the living suitably while better was not healthy to my recovery, but I am still on good terms with my friend.

I am going to discuss with my therapist today about new meds, and working on improving some of my anti-social behaviors, self-destructive and attention whoring. And dealing with my loneliness, depression and lack of meaning and presuppose.

I would like to keep in touch, but I understand you need space.

I talked to the folks, have some finical matters to take care of, a meeting, therapy, group and sleep tonight in a new place. I spoke to my divisibility doctor recently. I also did some of my paper work for school, picked up some of the money and took care of business and other affairs.

I did laundry this week, called the folks. I also took care of something back in Houston, not in revenge but in well sticking up for myself to late, there is someone I might sue civil matter given the criminal statuette of limitations ran out. Some folks who abused me, which I have plans to see justice.

I also let go faced more fears and insecurity, I also want to contact someone and ask to be welcomed but Know my welcome ran out, Or think it did. I admit things are not jolly fucking marry poppers, but I am at more peace, I am scared but I made the right choice even If I didn't do things the right way, sooner or later I need to go back and face my fears.

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