Today and yesterday I overloaded and broke down in tears, of pain and suffering. I think I hurt badly moving on or trying to. Its hard remembering the pain and leering go and being well progressive.
Somethings wrong or messed up, even though alas I don't know whats wrong. I have my life somewhat under control, but its slipping, or something in my soul anger and resentment and pity or destruction for my soul or myself
though I will regain power over my powerless, I have a headache and cold, and stress is through the roof, I feel even though results are showing for my hard work in san Francisco, I have massive stress and utterly high standards. Not that I am better than anyone else, I make it. And fucked it up. I must remain positive and disciplined for the task at hand.
I also remain well utterly bad and wrong, I think anyway I move onward.
My past is haunting me and more and more its growing and bettering myself, only due to my own stupidity and resentment I opened up a shit hole of worms, for one my big resentments toward someone in my past, a friend of bills suggested I remove all numbers with 713.281,832 area codes and change my cell phone number to cut ties and let go, in being powerless.
Maybe Ill keep of the net for a while and relax, Ive lost weight and being powerless I am making progress, I must archive zen and enlightenment again
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