My Life, angist, feelingsGrattudie, my love of president elect obama

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Slept alas a bit different last night, a bit shaken, had one of those horrid dreams, still waiting for the appointment for the MRI & Cat scan, had a referral but the incompetent doctors lost it. I lost the paper work also doesn’t show up in the computer, the frustration builds, Ill discuss this in the next week when I go to Lyon Martin.
Furthermore, my bitching rant about bible thumping christen(s) upset some individuals possibly, cried a lot this morning, over someone who cared I hurt, and then left. I also cried a lot because the nightmare I don’t remember.
Moreover, I attended a wonderful meeting at the San Francisco Alano Club this morning; I also did some coding for a web2.0 version of my site, and other sites. I sent off a few copies of my resume, I need make a note next week to FEDEX documents to DLG, and pick them up from POS/MS near second and Townsend.
I have a confessional, I control my nightmares and stop dreaming by how I position myself sometimes when I go to sleep, the pain I have in my heart are bad, of my actions in Houston, My shame towards the Church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints, my anger toward my parents.
My distancing self from my family. I lookfoward toward president Obama taking office, talked to a friend late last night, uh I have so much to do, took care of my finical planning for the next yet again move, and hopefully the move out of my current dump of a living situation.

Spoke to CE last night about life, love, DT also said he is a little weird and we aren’t a good match, spoke with DT as well this morning. He is selfish, and controlling and has all my defects of charter which I am working to overcome.
It sickens me the thought of living with CE, what a fucking loser, I mean I know I could be set, but some liberal fuckjob, is not worth his bullshit, plus the fact he slept with a younger extended family member disturbs me and creeps me out that he slept with some misfit and slut. It does not meet my utter high standards.
I look forward toward president elect Obama taking office, and pray for his safety amongst racism, fascism, and right wing nut jobs daily, I hope he does not become another JFK. He sure is a peoples president.
I hope we repeal prop eight, and also get the original version of EDNA the employment non discrimination act passed under the leadership of Obama, and gender identity inclusive federal civil rights.

I had some creepy dunk bums taunt me, and expose them selves to me this morning on the way to the meeting. I might go make a report at the mission substation after today if I go to night noon or go get lunch later than to the mission library to get some work done someplace Zen.

The reason I didn’t call SFPD is I think the area fell under the justistration of the northern police district which the nicer areas include some of the most powerful and far right-wing districts politically , and as a result I believe, some of the officers in that patrol sector don’t always treat me fairly, and sadly I am afraid to call for service, I made a complaint about that, and its where I had my infamous event in Jan. 2008, where I witnessed the blue wall of silence, and saw seven officers walk away from a old fart officer who had way more stripes and lucky for me, I speak redneck and pleaded not to hurt me which May have saved me from some trumped up charges and a severe beating.





The List
1.) Mailbox
2.) Talk to FK
3.) Umbrella
4.) Lunch sort of
5.) Send resume off
6.)

Gratitude List
1.) That president elect Obama will be taking office soon
2.) That those nut jobs who wanted to kill Obama and African Americans will rot in prison
3.) To be alive
4.) To have people who care about me, support and community
5.) To have a plan, goals and positive outlook on life
6.) To have high standards
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