life and progress not prefection

Monday, November 17, 2008

Had a good meeting this morning, was very productive and progressive, continue to grow as an individual and prosper as a young woman. I also slept well, very well and had shiny happy dreams last night.
Have a busy Super Tuesday ahead and much to achieve, preformed some planning tonight and I continue to grow as a woman, and prosper as an individual. My life has meaning, I called my father today, and apologized, and will continue to respect Martin Cark Gatemen’s wishes and respect his boundaries even if it hurts me, or isn’t what I want.
I have an appointment pending with a client in the east bay in the next few weeks. I also have much to achieve in myself.

Furthermore, I preformed some planning tonight for my next goals and steps in life as I trudge the road to recovery from my self-distortive actions which being an adult I am taking accountability for even though not easy.

Had lunch with Mike Burkett today was interesting slightly. I also,
11-19-2008

Slept well last night, awoke early this morning. Cleaned up have a few projects to work on today not much happening. Some chick where I live left her purse not secure and someone ripped her off. Furthermore, I have been thinking about something.

My outburst or two, at the marina dock, the Castro country club, and with the Houston Transgender Community is wrong, I don’t always have emotional sobriety, I’m scared, I find in my hunt to reform my life, I would not ask for help from some individuals I don’t want to have contact with, or individuals which I don’t want to harm further.

I’ve decided to cut more ties in San Francisco even as painful as it is, and maybe more harmful to me, I don’t at this point desire to see christen, or others and cretin groups, originations and places Ill cut back from while she’s here.

Moreover, the best way to make amends in zero contact and to live and let die. The medication and my HRT is helping deal with some of my trauma, and PTSD. Nevertheless, I’m unhappy in this queer Mecca, I feel so alone, it would be nice to have a warm bed to sleep in of my own without the bullshit.

Gratitude List
1.) To have possible plans and backup plans for thanksgiving. (if not I always manage to amuse myself)
2.) To be sober as of 7-13-2007
3.) To be working on my anger

11-20-2008

A young lady last night had her purse stolen by selfish folks woke up at 1130, slept till 4am, than continued to grow, I was pissed about being woken up for bullshit, but , I was careless once and did the same thing sort of.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Slept very well last night I continue to grow as an individual. I use to grow as a person. I’ve been thinking of my courses I plan to take at city collage
1.) Intro to criminal justice
2.) Computer Science ------- primary goal engineering computers
3.) Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgender Studies
4.) Network Administration
5.) A preparation for the A+ Computer exam
6.) A Preparation for Linux / UNIX Certification
7.) A Preparation for a Cisco certification
8.) Graphic Design / digital art / drafting digital
9.) Into to Photography
10.) Preparation for Journalism

My plan is eventual become fit for corporate security, or as a network admin/ web developer. Furthermore, I grow more and more. Or work in Local Law Enforcement as a computer crimes specialist, I do not think I am fit to be a beat cop nor want to get my head blown off.

Or possibly work for non profits the main focus is IT but to diversify some of my classes to make me more valuable, and continue education as IT professionals must often do. So I can work in different industries and eventfully freelance like sp0rked

Moreover I continue to grow as a person The truth as an individual and others prejudice, and judgment, sometimes un-knowingly, hurts me. I was a bit sad last night, perhaps I should be more assertive in myself.

Furthermore, I have been thinking about my actions, the holidays are upcoming and I now have thanksgiving plans I continue to grow as a person, and individual, I grow more as a person, and continue to prosper.

Furthermore, I did this to myself, and face the consequences of my actions. I’m a tough person, hard as nails my father quotes me as “being incredibly brave for going through my life the way I am” I wasn’t always this way, Katrina, my abuse in Houston, my sobriety, lambda center, and my therapist made me who I am today.
It makes me happy my father thinks of me as a Brave, and noble individual.
Who am I today?
I am brave, strong, a patriot to my country, independent, adventurous, hard worker, kind, chartable, give service, butch, femme, open minded, moderate , independent politically, old fashioned, christen, spiritual, alive, full of sprit.

Furthermore, I grow as a person, I continue to grow as a person.


The List
1.) Laundry
2.) Meeting
3.) Work
4.) E-mail
5.) Copy documents and mail to RH
6.) FAX Documents to DLG
7.) Update will, copy and mail, and file
8.) Update medical power of atty copy, mail and file
9.) Meditate
10.) R&r


Gratitude List
1.) That I am a brave person.
2.) That I am alive
3.) That I have friends, and people who care about me
4.) That I am true to myself as an individual
5.) That I am pretty
6.) That I am sober
7.) That I am making living amends to those I harmed by backing down and staying away
8.) That I can respect my fathers boundaries
9.) That I am alive that I have friends in Houston, New Orleans, San Francisco, Oakland, Berkeley, Austin, and Dallas, and Baton Rouge
10.) That I have a program
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