Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Life In San Francisco in the cold, wet and damp weather

I continue to grow as an individual, I slept well last night. I awoke about midnight, again at 2am, was awake and out of bed by 3am. I dreamed again of adventure and the open road. I called my friend from the Marina Dock Karen, and told her Im afraid, and unconnected.

I don’t like the way my life is now, and I’m doing something about it, I spoke to my father a week ago, and told him of my plans to hit the road, upon finishing my classes, paper work and getting my CDL Back.

I miss my father, I need to see him but doubt I will ever be a large part of my life, I’m hopeing to deploy OTR and maybe sometime around the holidays get some R&R In New Orleans, Houston, Dallas, or Austin if things go well.


Anyway, I’m here in Oakland writing this in one of my favorite coffee shops in Oakland The Rooz, on Piedmont aver, near Montclair north Oakland, close to piedmont (city of). I have a 10am electro appointment. I also have much to do in the next few weeks.


It’s cold, damp, wet and raining and does not help with me feeling sad, the weather is how I feel inside, anyway next week I have an appointment at Lyon Martin to get my health question are filled out to start get the ball on getting my Class A License back.


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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
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Monday, February 16, 2009

Monday, February 16, 2009

I slept, well last night, and continued to grow as an individual. I composed a letter more recently, and discovered something within my inner personal development and myself. I am working on my Grant Proposal for my commercial drivers license
I added code to my site, have to go to the shoe repair shop this week, have an electro appointment in Oakland Soon, and have to go to the Alameda County Clerk’s office to get my documents amended.

Added code to the site, I attended a 7am meeting at the San Francisco Alano Club, I did a few other chores laundry, did my back work out, had a woman who also was (TS) get into a potentially bad sutituion, I avoided using my skills of Krav Maga, and used my suburb conflict resolution, and customer service skills to avoid a cat fight it a women’s communal bath-house.


Not much I can achieve today due to being a federal holiday, just wait and attended my electro appointment tomorrow, and I have much to achieve this week.









Here is what I have so far (grant proposal):

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
(415) 678-0859 – (713) 578-0016 – LEEMCG@LEEMCG.COM

Grant Proposal For Commercial Truck Driver

Sunday, February 15, 2009
Introduction

My Name Is Leigh McInnis Gaetjens, and I desire to become a Commercial Driver through the Department of Rehab Services to contribute as a productive tax-paying member of society.
The commercial Driving Field is in high demand, due to Driver Turnover, Un-qualified drivers, disqualified drivers, retiring drivers, growing global trade.

in imports, and exports and everything in modern society at one point is on the back of a truck due to being a essential part of the international trade, transportation and logistics, without Trucks and Truck Drivers everyone would be Un-employed and society as we understand it today would be Impossible.

School Suggestion
I have chosen and suggest the National Truck Driving School In Hayward, CA due to the following:
1.) It is approved by the Department of Rebhablation
2.) It is accessible via BART from San Francisco, and AC Transit.
3.) Has Smaller, Longer classes for students who have other commitments, which is my choice of program
Their contact info is:
4125 Breakwater Ave #A
Hayward, California 94545
http://www.truckdriving-schools.com/
USA
510-487-7425

The School as part-time student options (due to commitments and my life cirmstances) I would prefer to study a few days a week rather than the full week, classes they offer in the (4 week course)

I want to re-acquire my CDL are and what best qualifies me for this opportunity are:
1.) The Trucking industry is growing, and there are not enough qualified drivers
2.) I love driving, trucking, traveling and the lifestyle of adventure and roughing it
3.) Fitness, and adventure are part of my daily life
4.) I have Zero DUI(s) in my entire life, and NO Felonies
Licensing and Industry Background:
A Commercial Driver's License (CDL) is required in the United States to operate any type of vehicle with a gross weight of 26,001 lb (11,793 kg) or over including (but not limited to) tow trucks, tractor trailers and buses.
The Commercial Motor Vehicle Safety Act of 1986 was signed into law on October 27, 1986. The main purpose for the Act was to improve highway safety by making sure truck drivers and drivers of tractor trailers and buses have passed a written and driving test to become qualified to drive Commercial Motor Vehicles (CMVs), and to remove drivers that are unsafe and unqualified from the highways. The Act continued to give states the right to issue CDLs, but the national government established minimum requirements that must be met when issuing a CDL.
A Commercial Driver's License is required to operate a tractor-trailer.
The Act corrects the problems that existed before 1986 by making it illegal to hold more than one license and by requiring States to adopt testing and licensing standards for truck and bus drivers.
Industry Growth Projection(s) for Commercial Truck Drivers:
Overall job opportunities should be favorable for truck drivers, although opportunities may vary greatly in terms of earnings, weekly work hours, number of nights spent on the road, and quality of equipment. Competition is expected for jobs offering the highest earnings or most favorable work schedules. Average growth is expected.
Employment change. Overall employment of truck drivers and driver/sales workers is expected to increase by 8 percent over the 2006-16 decade, which is about as fast as the average for all occupations, due to growth in the economy and in the amount of freight carried by truck. Because it is such a large occupation, truck drivers will have a very large number of new jobs arise, over 258,000 over the 2006-16 period. Competing forms of freight transportation—rail, air, and ship transportation—require trucks to move the goods between ports, depots, airports, warehouses, retailers, and final consumers who are not connected to these other modes of transportation. Demand for long-distance drivers will remain strong because they can transport perishable and time-sensitive goods more effectively than alternate modes of transportation.
Job prospects.Job opportunities should be favorable for truck drivers. In addition to growth in demand for truck drivers, numerous job openings will occur as experienced drivers leave this large occupation to transfer to other fields of work, retire, or leave the labor force for other reasons. Jobs vary greatly in terms of earnings, weekly work hours, the number of nights spent on the road, and quality of equipment. There may be competition for the jobs with the highest earnings and most favorable work schedules. There will be more competition for jobs with local carriers than for those with long-distance carriers because of the more desirable working conditions of local carriers.
Job opportunities may vary from year to year since the output of the economy dictates the amount of freight to be moved. Companies tend to hire more drivers when the economy is strong and their services are in high demand. When the economy slows, employers hire fewer drivers or may lay off some drivers. Independent owner-operators are particularly vulnerable to slowdowns. Industries least likely to be affected by economic fluctuation, such as grocery stores, tend to be the most stable employers of truck drivers and driver/sales workers.

Training, Other Qualifications, and Advancement
A commercial driver’s license (CDL) is required to drive large trucks and a regular driver’s license is required to drive all other trucks. Training for the CDL is offered by many private and public vocational-technical schools. Many jobs driving smaller trucks require only brief on-the-job training.
Education and training. Taking driver-training courses is a good way to prepare for truck driving jobs and to obtain a commercial drivers license (CDL). High school courses in driver training and automotive mechanics also may be helpful. Many private and public vocational-technical schools offer tractor-trailer driver training programs. Students learn to maneuver large vehicles on crowded streets and in highway traffic. They also learn to inspect trucks and freight for compliance with regulations. Some States require prospective drivers to complete a training course in basic truck driving before getting their CDL.
Completion of a program does not guarantee a job. Some programs provide only a limited amount of actual driving experience. People interested in attending a driving school should check with local trucking companies to make sure the school’s training is acceptable. The Professional Truck Driver Institute (PTDI), a nonprofit organization established by the trucking industry, manufacturers, and others, certifies driver-training courses at truck driver training schools that meet industry standards and Federal Highway Administration guidelines for training tractor-trailer drivers.
Training given to new drivers by employers is usually informal and may consist of only a few hours of instruction from an experienced driver, sometimes on the new employee’s own time. New drivers may also ride with and observe experienced drivers before getting their own assignments. Drivers receive additional training to drive special types of trucks or handle hazardous materials. Some companies give 1 to 2 days of classroom instruction covering general duties, the operation and loading of a truck, company policies, and the preparation of delivery forms and company records. Driver/sales workers also receive training on the various types of products their company carries so that they can effectively answer questions about the products and more easily market them to their customers.
New drivers sometimes start on panel trucks or other small straight trucks. As they gain experience and show competent driving skills, new drivers may advance to larger, heavier trucks and finally to tractor-trailers.
Licensure.
State and Federal regulations govern the qualifications and standards for truck drivers. All drivers must comply with Federal regulations and any State regulations that are in excess of those Federal requirements. Truck drivers must have a driver’s license issued by the State in which they live, and most employers require a clean driving record. Drivers of trucks designed to carry 26,000 pounds or more—including most tractor-trailers, as well as bigger straight trucks—must obtain a commercial driver’s license. All truck drivers who operate trucks transporting hazardous materials must obtain a CDL, regardless of truck size. In order to receive the hazardous materials endorsement, a driver must be fingerprinted and submit to a criminal background check by the Transportation Security Administration. In many States, a regular driver’s license is sufficient for driving light trucks and vans.
To qualify for a CDL, an applicant must have a clean driving record, pass a written test on rules and regulations, and demonstrate that they can operate a commercial truck safely. A national database permanently records all driving violations committed by those with a CDL. A State will check these records and deny a CDL to those who already have a license suspended or revoked in another State. Licensed drivers must accompany trainees until they get their own CDL. A person may not hold more than one license at a time and must surrender any other licenses when a CDL is issued. Information on how to apply for a CDL may be obtained from State motor vehicle administrations.
Many States allow those who are as young as 18 years old to drive trucks within their borders. To drive a commercial vehicle between States one must be at least 21 years of age, according to the Federal Motor Carrier Safety Regulations published by the U.S. Department of Transportation (U. S. DOT). Regulations also require drivers to pass a physical examination once every 2 years. Physical qualifications include good hearing, at least 20/40 vision with glasses or corrective lenses, and a 70-degree field of vision in each eye. Drivers may not be colorblind. Drivers must also be able to hear a forced whisper in one ear at not less than 5 feet, with a hearing aid if needed. Drivers must have normal use of arms and legs and normal blood pressure. People with epilepsy or diabetes controlled by insulin are not permitted to be interstate truck drivers.
Federal regulations also require employers to test their drivers for alcohol and drug use as a condition of employment and require periodic random tests of the drivers while they are on duty. Drivers may not use any controlled substances, unless prescribed by a licensed physician. A driver must not have been convicted of a felony involving the use of a motor vehicle or a crime involving drugs, driving under the influence of drugs or alcohol, refusing to submit to an alcohol test required by a State or its implied consent laws or regulations, leaving the scene of a crime, or causing a fatality through negligent operation of a motor vehicle. All drivers must be able to read and speak English well enough to read road signs, prepare reports, and communicate with law enforcement officers and the public.
Other qualifications.
Many trucking companies have higher standards than those described here. Many firms require that drivers be at least 22 years old, be able to lift heavy objects, and have driven trucks for 3 to 5 years. Many prefer to hire high school graduates and require annual physical examinations. Companies have an economic incentive to hire less risky drivers, as good drivers use less fuel and cost less to insure.
Drivers must get along well with people because they often deal directly with customers. Employers seek driver/sales workers who speak well and have self-confidence, initiative, tact, and a neat appearance. Employers also look for responsible, self-motivated individuals who are able to work well with little supervision.
Advancement.

Although most new truck drivers are assigned to regular driving jobs immediately, some start as extra drivers—substituting for regular drivers who are ill or on vacation. Extra drivers receive a regular assignment when an opening occurs.
Truck drivers can advance to driving runs that provide higher earnings, preferred schedules, or better working conditions. Local truck drivers may advance to driving heavy or specialized trucks or transfer to long-distance truck driving. Working for companies that also employ long-distance drivers is the best way to advance to these positions. Few truck drivers become dispatchers or managers.
Many long-distance truck drivers purchase trucks and go into business for themselves. Although some of these owner-operators are successful, others fail to cover expenses and go out of business. Owner-operators should have good business sense as well as truck driving experience. Courses in accounting, business, and business mathematics are helpful. Knowledge of truck mechanics can enable owner-operators to perform their own routine maintenance and minor repairs.



Employment
Truck drivers and driver/sales workers held about 3.4 million jobs in 2006. Of these workers, 445,000 were driver/sales workers and 2.9 million were truck drivers. Most truck drivers find employment in large metropolitan areas or along major interstate roadways where trucking, retail, and wholesale companies tend to have their distribution outlets. Some drivers work in rural areas, providing specialized services such as delivering newspapers to customers.
The truck transportation industry employed 26 percent of all truck drivers and driver/sales workers in the United States. Another 25 percent worked for companies engaged in wholesale or retail trade. The remaining truck drivers and driver/sales workers were distributed across many industries, including construction and manufacturing.
Around 9 percent of all truck drivers and driver/sales workers were self-employed. Of these, a significant number were owner-operators who either served a variety of businesses independently or leased their services and trucks to a trucking company.

The Process to Obtain A California CDL



The Various License Classes and Endorsements as Regulated by FMCR, DOT, and DMV:
Class definitions
Since April 1, 1992, when this Act became law, all drivers have been required to have a CDL in order to drive a Commercial Motor Vehicle. The Federal Highway Administration (FHWA) has developed testing standards for licensing drivers. States are able to issue CDLs only after a written and driving test have been given by the State or approved testing facility. A driver will need a CDL if the vehicle meets one of the following definitions of a CMV:
• Class A - Any combination of vehicles with a GVWR of 26,001 or more pounds (11,793 kg) provided the GVWR of the vehicle(s) being towed is in excess of 10,000 pounds (4536 kg).
• Class B - Any single vehicle with a GVWR of 26,001 or more pounds (11,793 kg), or any such vehicle towing a vehicle not in excess of 10,000 pounds (4536 kg) GVWR.
• Class C - Any single vehicle, or combination of vehicles, that does not meet the definition of Class A or Class B, but is either designed to transport 16 or more passengers, including the driver, or is placarded for hazardous materials.
Please Note: States may require drivers of additional vehicles to have CDLs or have more strict regulations than by the Federal regulations, do allow states to have variance with Motor Carrier Laws
License Endorsements
Additional tests to obtain any of the following endorsements on their CDL have to be passed as well. These are only obtained after a CDL has been issued to the driver.
• T Semi trailer Double or Triple (Written Test)
o (Certain states prohibit triple trailers statewide, such as California, Florida, and New York.)
o A Class A license is required to obtain the T endorsement
• P Passenger Vehicle (Written and Driving Tests)
• S School Bus (Written and Driving Test, Background Check, Sex Offender Registry Check and P endorsement)
• N Tank Truck (Written Test)
• H Hazardous materials (Written Test and Background Check through the Transportation Security Administration)
• X Combination of Tank Vehicle and Hazardous Materials (Written Test)
Process of obtaining a CDL In California, and The Bay Area:
The Closest CDL License Office to San Francisco is Located at:
501 85th Avenue
Oakland, 94621
(800)777-0133

How to apply for a commercial driver license (CDL)
A commercial driver license is a license issued in accordance with Federal Regulations that allows an individual to operate a commercial vehicle.
You must be at least 21 years old to drive a commercial vehicle across state lines (interstate commerce) or to transport passengers or hazardous materials or wastes (intrastate or interstate commerce). You may drive for hire within California if you are 18 years of age or older and do not engage in interstate commerce activities. If you are 16 years of age but less than 18 years of age, you may not drive for hire and you may not drive outside of California. (VC §12515) (VC §12516)
10 Year History Record Check
The Motor Carrier Safety Improvement Act of 1999, and applicable Federal Regulations requires all commercial driver license applicants including renewal applications to disclose whether he or she has been issued a driver license in the same or different name to operate any type of motor vehicle in another state or other jurisdiction within the previous ten years. If the answer is “Yes” to the ten year history record question, a 10 Year History Record Check form (DL 939) complete and submitted with the Commercial Driver License Application (DL 44C).
Starting May 31, 2005, new federal regulations require a person who is applying for a California commercial driver license with an original or renewal Hazardous Materials (HazMat) endorsement to undergo a security threat assessment. The USA Patriot Act requires the Transportation Security Administration (TSA) to complete a security threat assessment (background records check) before the Department of Motor Vehicles issues a HazMat endorsement.
TSA’s Process
You start the TSA background records check after you apply for your CDL at DMV, successfully complete all appropriate law tests, and submit a valid Medical Examination Report form (DL 51).
To apply for a commercial permit, you will need to:
• Visit a DMV office (make an Appointment(s) for faster service)
• Complete a California Driver License Driver License Application form (DL 44 or DL 44C). (An original DL 44C form must be submitted. Copies will not be accepted.)
• Complete a 10 Year History Record Check form (DL 939) if you have been issued a driver license in the same or different name to operate any type of motor vehicle in another state or other jurisdiction within the previous ten years
• Give a thumb print
• Have your picture taken
• Provide verification of your social security number. It will be verified with the Social Security Administration while you are in the office.
• Verify your birth date and legal presence (you may use your California driver license) If your current name no longer matches the name on your birth date/legal presence document, see "True Full Name" and "How to Change Your Name" for more information.
• Pay the application fee for a 5-year license
• Pass a vision exam
• Submit a completed Medical Examination Report form DL 51.
Effective October 1, 2004, DMV will accept only a Medical Examination Report (DL 51) with a revision date of 2/2004 or later, or a current medical form (containing the new blood pressure guidelines) approved by the Federal Highway Administration or the Federal Aviation Administration.
• Pass the traffic laws and sign tests for the class of vehicle you will drive. You have three chances to pass the test.

• Once you have passed your tests, you will be issued a permit. You can only drive with a person who has a valid California driver license in the class of license that your permit is for and is the specific age required for that class of license.
To apply for your commercial driver license you will need to:
• Call a DMV CDL office and make an appointment for a driving test. (Commercial driving test appointments cannot be made online)
• Bring the type of vehicle for the class you want to drive
• Pass a pre-trip inspection (You have three chances to pass the pre-trip)
• Pass a skills and driving test (You have three chances to pass the skills and driving test)
OR
• Submit to DMV a Certificate of Driving Skill (DL 170) if your employer is authorized by DMV to issue such certificates. Both you and your employer sign this form.
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Medical report for commercial driver license (CDL)
A medical form completed by a U. S. licensed doctor of medicine (M.D.), osteopathy (D.O.), licensed physician assistant (P.A.), a nurse practitioner (N.P.), advance practice nurse, or chiropractor who is clinically competent to perform the medical examination, must be given to the DMV with your original application for a driver license or instruction permit. The medical form must be dated within the last 2 years and on a form approved by the Federal Highway Administration, the Federal Aviation Administration, DMV, or on the DMV Report of Medical Examination Report form Medical Examination Report (DL 51).


Conclusion:

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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Sunday, February 15, 2009

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Called home to Lambda Center, Spoke to Sonny, Called to my Diesel Dyke Friend Brandi, and left a message to call me about a few CDL Questions.

I am very excited as of late for this opportunity, I have to compose a Grant proposal and information about the Commercial Truck Driving Industry to get my grants approved, and also take an apptuide test as well.

I spoke to my father briefly this week, and Mike at the San Francisco Alano club, and plan to rent out a room for my 2 year soberity birthday on 7-13-2007. I also my father and I might actually both attend.

This morning, I awoke at 2am, was out of bed around 3 am, showered about 3:45-4L25 this morning, after doing my meditation and stretching workout routine, Got rained on the way to the Cal Train Depot.

The wind, and rain about 5am this morning was bad along south beach, while riding the N Judia :Owl MUNI Bus, to church street where I studied and did grant proposals at sparkys (having coffee) which we had some major amusement around 5:45 am.

A guy came in and attempted to “borrow” with out permission a Halloween mummy still up, while a off duty police officer was there, and was stupid. And gave it back after attempting to flee in a Taxi.


Uploaded files to my web server, and did a dvd-rw backup. Added code, did e-mail, and synced my AT&T Tilt and downloaded and backed up data. Missed Becca’s call, and have not spoken to Manual recently.
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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Saturday, February 14, 2009

Saturday, February 14, 2009

I find myself connected in an awaking within myself, for example perhaps the primary purpose, of choices, hardships I made was to do for myself for to better myself, and my country and contribute something to society.

For example, I have come to understand this opportunity, research and essay, I am composing to get this grant for my Commercial Drivers License re-instatement. Is worthwhile. Moreover, due to cirmstances, I must ignore things, and look the other way under much duress with my life.

The further reality of putting up and dealing with suituions I can’t stand, or dislike are much necessary. I also have been as of late working on my mediation, and learning to zip my lip, and become more self-aware within.

In two weeks, I have an appointment at Lyon Martin, for MY CDL Health questionnaire, and I will get the ball rolling on this, I also will start doing some of the written tests, to prepare for my CDL.

Also, I will eventfully have to undergo Federal Fingerprinting by TSA, and DHS. But I know its what I want in my heart.
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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Friday, February 13, 2009

Friday, February 13, 2009

Slept ok, awoke about 3am, out of bed by 4am, and took care of business this morning, and other affairs. Have an electro apt next Tuesday. I also have to do some shipping and receiving today.

I added more extensions to the file server; I spoke to a few individuals. Did a few other tasks. Going to a meeting this morning as well that most defeneallity on is my addenda.


I Spoke to Martile today and I went to the San Francisco Human Rights Commission, and am attempting to put closure with the Fare Inspectors for MUNI beef from last year, which continues to over blow, it started with one inspector who is no longer around was drunk on duty and picked a fight with me and punched me out of Trans-Phobia, yes it does exist in San Francisco.



I wrote a few lines of code for my server offline, and took care of other things. Caio
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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Tuesday, February 10, 2009
THE Person who mayade the nasty comments and we had our “beef” yesterday long ago, when he abused his H&I commitment, he ruined our friendship. I don’t know how to figure it out, but I sort oof relate. I tried to hard to see the good in him even if he is sorry.

I am a bit closer to obtaining my commercial drivers license (again) and closer towards obtaining goals to better me as an individual. I slept ok, and wrote code for various things, which I needed to, achieved. I showered this morning, the remodeling has made drastic progress, I also am guilty of telling other folks off , I used to like perhaps, in my “mean bitchness” I have refined my “selfish self” and am much more careful how, when, where I bend, break, or take action on those who need action or I want to take action against for various reasons.


I’m just really sad, my electro girl was sick, went to piedmont to no avail, than to therpey, than to otherchores and to have lunch with my sponsor. Anyway Im very tired, and sore and want to rest tonight, im skipping dinner, and off straight to bed.


Caio.
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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Sunday, February 8, 2009

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Slept ok, last night. Had an interesting experancee this morning. Had coffee this morning, takeing it a bit easy today, have a busy week this week and onward later in to the week. Have much more to do later this morning as well. I wrote code, also.

Someone is hitting me as of late and pushing me down stairs, and verbally threating me. I can’t prove it, and doubt if Law Enfrocement would be of much help or if I would trust the police.

I’m a lot closer to finishing and getting into truck driving school, and getting goals I need achived and finishing tasks which I must commit to finishing. I have grants, and loans and financeing I’m working on, and other things.


Regardle
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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Saturday, February 7, 2009

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Slept ok, recently. Have things to do today, have to echange a beauty product for another, that I bought the wrong one. Have to do shit today, and send documents off, headed to the ale media county courthouse tomorrow to handle some affairs (name change) and as I plan to apply for a new passport.

I also need to take care of other things, went to this wicked cheap ghetto ass diner, that the food was surprisingly good for being in the tenderloin, see my review on yelp.



Some finance things did not work out, my garnishments should be finished by July, and I make father amends to one of my creditors. I might go to the park or library today, after I finish taking care of some banking, and a few other issues.

I did some posting on forums, e-mail, and web administration today, I sent off a few resumes, and made some employment goals and commitments this week. I also have been working on other issues.


Have to run errands today as well, and meet with folks about issues.
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Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Friday, February 6, 2009

Friday, February 06, 2009
02/05/09
I have become more and even more disconnected from modern society. One of the things that drive me in force is repression, remembrance and the goal of revolution.
Having spent time in rural rough rugged Texas, the boondocks Cajun Louisiana, and the disgusting ultra labial city of San Francisco. Major big city Houston, big party new Orleans, and beyond Mormonism.
The conclusion I have discovered is the only answer to ending our struggles as transsexual women is launching an biblical attack of un-presented proportions
An attack on in structure, cyberspace, or using force of firearms, chemicals or explosive means seems proportionate. However, I am not a killer or aspiring terrorist I’m just a messenger of free speech.
Something such as free speech, the right to bear arms, protect yourself, and not be discrimination against is dwindling
I think Obama will make a great president and at this point am indifferent toward him. His actions on the war on terrorism are laughable but he will be a civil rights icon.
However, I feel he may become murdered in office due to persecution and hate which I also face. I do not advocate or support this, but I also am a realistic.
Groups such as neo Nazi fascism, anti GLBt, and KKK have thrived in the recession and under the bush administration
I become more and more discontent daily. I want my suffering and repression to end.
I sacrificed many parts of my former life in Houston. I walked away from many things in Louisiana also.
I feel the only answer to inner peace and happiness is to become more at peace and to end my suffering and bring justice to all individuals we are at war for our rights and those who deprive us.
When at war sometimes the good suffer in fear, TERROR AND SOME MUST DIE.


Furthermore, I concede the cesspool and disgusting things I have witnessed on the left coast, make me more and more angry and prone, to commit treason. I used to love my country and now I hate it more and more, I’m greatful to be here, but we need change, and we need a revolution.

Obama’s forge policy is laughable, and I think the risk of another terrorist attack equal to 9-11 or more will increase, sadly I voted for him, for obvious civil rights issues. But so far closing Guantanamo, and bringing terrorists to the us, is a very bad idea.
Moreover, I feel some of my associations in Texas, Louisiana, and California are more libieltys, and not helpful. I have prayed and know what I must do. I only wish I could share it with the world. But one day My name will be a household name, sealed in American history, and perhaps I will not be reflected upon rightly, but I will prove a point, that all LGBT and Very much s TS people need rights and protections, and I will carry this message across using any means necessary, and do whatever it takes to show America and the rest of the world that gender variant people are tired of repression.

Will history put me along the Lines of Bin Lydian, Gandhi, John Hinckley, McVeigh, The Unibomber, Hitller, or individuals who went through repression and were tired off it will be for the historians. However, right now I have things to achieve, and much planning and meditation for upcoming affairs.

Something crossed over in me, sometime in the era between 2005-2006, and there is no going back. The only answer is now or not, I know I cannot confirm or deny various radical individuals, I am known to associate with or what I plan to do. Nevertheless, I must make a very big political statement, it is likely I will be successful or fail in my end ours, and will be likely Jailed, and persecuted as many gays, lesbians, bisexual, transgender, and other individuals have been persecuted, jailed for centuries.

Murder, Laws and other things are mint to be broken, when political viewpoints take priority, I won’t confirm, my ties, and am much smarter than to store documents on my server, computer or PDA, where they could be searched our to use e-mail as it is a very insecure matter of correspondence.


It is likely I will not be around past my early 30s, or make it to my 30s. I am tired of suffering, and while I hold out hope for Obama, it would be too little, too late. I must remain careful whom I associate with and cut more ties. And also be careful whom I reveal my plans for vengeance, and revenge toward individuals, people, places, groups, employers and companies that persecute GLBT individuals must pay dearly.

For example, The growth and spiritual awakening, and my sobriety only makes me more determined, when I spent my time in the Harris County Jail, all I could think about is vengeance, even though I had a series of spiritual experiences there.

Which is sad, some people I lookup to are law enforcement officers them selves, are Transsexual but, My mission, and everyone is a potential adversary, much as GLBT and sex is when I was a Latter Day Saint. After all I am a convicted terrorist, why not up the antie.
Regardless, I have much to do today, and things to work on to better myself as an individual, and to work on projects I have running in the background.
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Friday, February 06, 2009
02/05/09
I have become more and even more disconnected from modern society. One of the things that drive me in force is repression, remembrance and the goal of revolution.
Having spent time in rural rough rugged Texas, the boondocks Cajun Louisiana, and the disgusting ultra labial city of San Francisco. Major big city Houston, big party new Orleans, and beyond Mormonism.
The conclusion I have discovered is the only answer to ending our struggles as transsexual women is launching an biblical attack of un-presented proportions
An attack on in structure, cyberspace, or using force of firearms, chemicals or explosive means seems proportionate. However, I am not a killer or aspiring terrorist I’m just a messenger of free speech.
Something such as free speech, the right to bear arms, protect yourself, and not be discrimination against is dwindling
I think Obama will make a great president and at this point am indifferent toward him. His actions on the war on terrorism are laughable but he will be a civil rights icon.
However, I feel he may become murdered in office due to persecution and hate which I also face. I do not advocate or support this, but I also am a realistic.
Groups such as neo Nazi fascism, anti GLBt, and KKK have thrived in the recession and under the bush administration
I become more and more discontent daily. I want my suffering and repression to end.
I sacrificed many parts of my former life in Houston. I walked away from many things in Louisiana also.
I feel the only answer to inner peace and happiness is to become more at peace and to end my suffering and bring justice to all individuals we are at war for our rights and those who deprive us.
When at war sometimes the good suffer in fear, TERROR AND SOME MUST DIE.


Furthermore, I concede the cesspool and disgusting things I have witnessed on the left coast, make me more and more angry and prone, to commit treason. I used to love my country and now I hate it more and more, I’m greatful to be here, but we need change, and we need a revolution.

Obama’s forge policy is laughable, and I think the risk of another terrorist attack equal to 9-11 or more will increase, sadly I voted for him, for obvious civil rights issues. But so far closing Guantanamo, and bringing terrorists to the us, is a very bad idea.

Moreover, I feel some of my associations in Texas, Louisiana, and California are more libieltys, and not helpful. I have prayed and know what I must do. I only wish I could share it with the world. But one day My name will be a household name, sealed in American history, and perhaps I will not be reflected upon rightly, but I will prove a point, that all LGBT and Very much s TS people need rights and protections, and I will carry this message across using any means necessary, and do whatever it takes to show America and the rest of the world that gender variant people are tired of repression.

Will history put me along the Lines of Bin Lydian, Gandhi, John Hinckley, McVeigh, The Unibomber, Hitller, or individuals who went through repression and were tired off it will be for the historians. But right now I have things to achive, and much planning and meditation for upcoming affairs.
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Thursday, February 5, 2009

Thursday, February 05, 2009
Slept well, last night, did not finish the laundry will do that Friday, I mangled to order my replacement for my defective tat tilt Smartphone, I also got my replacement razr. I had a employment lead yesterday, have one today, and therapy this morning.

I also need to go to Walgreens to get my scripts filled down on Castro ST. I wrote code, for my site. I am planning in 2010 to move down to daily city, and do the communtirer thing, or maybe move further north to Vallejo, or amniotic.
I added some stuff to my site, my bones, back, neck and hand have been hurting due to the very damp weather as of late. I went to a 7am meeting at the Alano club. I also have been looking forward to my trip back south.


I spoke to DLG a bit today, I also should be finished with some of my affairs soon. I wrote code a bit yesterday, but lately ive been a bit uninspired to write much, I’ve been keeping myself very busy as of late with work, projects and keeping myself out the devil’s playground with idleness.

Moreover, Ive been a bit quiet, lately because, Im scared, curious and confused and still figuring things and myself and where I want to go today, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year and beyond 2010.




I more recently took care of a few things, and did a few other things.
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

I have a very busy day today, called and finally processed my insurance replacement, my back is feeling better, but still stiff do to the remodeling back at the ranch. I took care of my old POS cell phone busted in the attack back in decemeber.

I also have two job leads this week, a job fair to attend possibly and to file some paperwork for my name change, I have so much in my past to clear up.

Had a disagreement with MLS, though not bad, I have been a bit bitchy lately due to not getting to enough meetings, I might go to one next week at the Berkeley Fellowship. I also have to do a few other things as well.

Spoke to Brandi a bit, and a few friends from the east bay, I have a trip to Louisiana and Texas next year, I might be moving for a while down to daily city, south san Francisco or burgher north to Pittsburg, Bay Point, or anatomic, or Richmond for a while.



I spoke to DLG, and sent letters out and met with my friend Tammy at the Alano club this morning, I got hit on by two guys and a girl this morning on MUNI Metro, BART and the F Line.


Not much to say but busy as a bee, Face book enabled my account after suspending it.
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Monday, February 2, 2009

Monday, February 02, 2009
Some dickhead, was hitting on me yesterday at the club, someone else pissed me off, Ill talk to my friend tammy about it. I also awoke early this morning, and have to turn in early to get up very early tomorrow.

I have much to achive today, as well as tomorrow. I added code on my site, I have a very busy and eventful week this week.

I have two employment realted things, Im working on. I also have a few other things to achive. I have a few other issues, I am working on as well. I have of late also have laundry to do this week, amongst other chores, I have much going on.


I also have therpey this week amongst other issues.
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Sunday, February 1, 2009

Sunday, February 01, 2009

I slept good last night, awoke at 2am pacific time, was out of bed by 4am, Had a naughty dream last night ironically, Saw the really stone butch lesbian, again. I also yesterday saw that FtM which I believe is wrong.


I vented some of my anger, and have some very positive things happening this year with my finicalness, my going back to work, and other issues, as well as big plans for 2010, I went to one of my favorite meetings at the San Francisco Alano Club as Bill CC’s motorcycle AA meeting.

In 2010 I plan to revisit New Orleans, Houston and ideally drive back to California, In my big butch truck. I also plan to meet with friends, foes and also some aquainces with in Texas. In addition, might move further to northern California, to Humboldt county, perhaps. Or near anionic, until I’m able to afford the popup rv I’ve always wanted and live at a rv resort full time down in Pacifica, and community via my truck, the cal train, and Bart to the city.

Even if at some point I move out of state, I will keep ties with California, for the moment, or the immediate future. The reality is I plan to relate, more to individuals, and I love my family and friends, and foes.

I have found some forgivenss in myself, as of late and my anger and resenements. I have a lot to get done today when things open and much to achive
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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Sunday, February 01, 2009

I slept good last night, awoke at 2am pacific time, was out of bed by 4am, Had a naughty dream last night ironically, Saw the really stone butch lesbian, again. I also yesterday saw that FtM which I believe is wrong.


I vented some of my anger, and have some very positive things happening this year with my finicalness, my going back to work, and other issues, as well as big plans for 2010, I went to one of my favorite meetings at the San Francisco Alano Club as Bill CC’s motorcycle AA meeting.

In 2010 I plan to revisit New Orleans, Houston and ideally drive back to California, In my big butch truck. I also plan to meet with friends, foes and also some aquainces with in Texas. In addition, might move further to northern California, to Humboldt county, perhaps. Or near anionic, until I’m able to afford the popup rv I’ve always wanted and live at a rv resort full time down in Pacifica, and community via my truck, the cal train, and Bart to the city.

Even if at some point I move out of state, I will keep ties with California, for the moment, or the immediate future. The reality is I plan to relate, more to individuals, and I love my family and friends, and foes.

I have found some forgivenss in myself, as of late and my anger and resenements. I have a lot to get done today when things open and much to achive
--
Leigh "LEE" McInnis Gaetjens
Ind Contractor / Web Mistress leemcg.com
PO Box 425081
San Francisco, CA 94142
mcinnisleegaetjens@gmail.com
(713) 578-0016
http://mlgaetjens.livejournal.com (blog)
http://mlgaetjens.photobucket.com (photos)
http://www.leemcg.com/ (Website)
http://www.transitioningfemale.com/ (blog simulcast untill transfered to moveable type)
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